Thank you from me as well Mistiis. I too was worried.

Many thoughts are with you and even more hugs, pono.

(((mistiis))) mahalo for call and for posting

sorry i'd not been able to come back , check in, till now...

THANK ALL for outreach, support, concern
will try to 'update' later...
Blessings...

Am here Pono if you need a friend.

Pono keep holding on and keep coming here. I will be calling you on this Friday when its my day off. cus ya know i like to have time to talk a bit and not have to rush off .
know we all are concerned , we care and we love you. You are a special friend and family member here too. So keep reaching holding on and know we are all here for you.
Luv ya sister.
PEACE
BMW

((PONO)) You have more courage and strength than you can possibly know I can't know your personal pain dear friend, but I am in the dark abyss with you...I know the strength it takes to surface, to reach out.

We share the physical pains of our diseases

We share the emotional grief of the loss of our fathers

My heart is breaking for the pain I know you are in

Yet, my heart is lightened, my strength renewed, to see you fighting.. and fighting and fighting

You can make it dear ((pono)) together we can all make it When we reach the end of our rope, someone here is always willing to tie another knot to help us hang on

Much love my friend Nikki

when you bury your face in your hands and cry, dear pono...

and you can't see anything but darkness....

cry as hard as you can and get as angry as you can....

then, lift your head up and blow your nose (so you can breath)

and wipe away those tears...

turn on the puter. Come here and see the light and love....

hope can come in forms of bits and pieces as small as a pin needle...

but hope has one unique talent.

it can GROW exponentially...

one hug can feel like 10 hopes

two hugs can feel like a 100 hopes...

and there are enough hugs here to give you a million hopes...

I'll start you off with a couple...

first want to Thank ALL for caring concern, outreach , support & more
i
wanted- tried to personally reply,
i'd like to go back & respond to all ... if i don't please know that each every word thought prayer were /are LifeLines
i didn't feel i had the strength to hang on or if i wanted to "hold on" any longer.... but i'm still here.....

My life now feels like a bizarre dream, crazy carnival = full of 'tricksters", scams & games i don't like, want nor know how to play....
like being stuck on those 'thrill' rides i don't like- like roller coaster.... sickening , nauseous, dizzy shaking confused, scared...
want it to stop; get off/out; ready to jump rather than continue on & on...
in the slower upward climbs begin to see, feel HOPE but then in intense downward drops, lose it.....

ups down all arounds continue....
mornings still hardest for some reason
but 'breakdown' can do occur anytime, place...

HopeLost & Found,
find lose, again..and again.... as these storms continue......
spring storms now ... Spring ... {gonna try hold those thoughts for thread (((Moi))) began--on beginning of Spring....

Realize HOPE is not actually Lost, but obscured -- like the sun lite on this foggy gray morn,
'hidden' by huge cloud of Pain Grief Losses more...

pray... this too shall pass....

((Dear sweet Pono)) I feel your pain so cleary by your words.....You speak for my heart as well. What can I do to help you hang on dearheart? Keep reaching out, keep talking... proof that all hope is not lost proof that you reach others with your words Proof that so many here love youI love you, keep swimming my friend

(((Nikki))) I also feel your pain so deeply & clearly
your words so often speak for & to my heart ..
deeply & clearly communicating...
LOVE --
this is How you HELP....

your caring concern & compassionate outreach when you have so much 'on your plate"
your honest sharing
your PAIN & experiences
your courage & strength
your understanding & empathy and so much more...
LOVE

"proof " indeed that all hope is not lost
and reason to 'keep swimmin"

thanks
Love


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