Justice, that's very good news indeed.
Happy belated Birthday to you and many happy returns of the day.
It sounds as if you're doing something very right. Take care of yourself there.

Having a really tough time again!
 

This thread makes me very sad. I too have tried to take my own life. I don't talk about it much as I have a very difficult time just thinking about it.

I don't think it is a coward's way out either as someone mentioned. Whoever would say that has no idea what kind of pain a person is experiencing to even think about doing something like this let alone following through with it.

I have two dogs and they are keeping me on this earth. I know that sounds odd but there were days that only my dogs were able to get me to smile. They do not judge or say nasty things. They don't care if I'm too thin or too fat. They don't say nasty things about me behind my back. I have learned that people can be very cruel, uncaring and two faced. That combined with chronic illness can just push anyone over the edge.

I hope I never fall into that black hole again.

life is hard -good decisions are imperative to your life
 

dearest dearhearts
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I am not for certain but I am sure of this -we have all been very depressed,
outta of blue sky - suddenly-I hear my self doubts scream -you have no purpose in your life - why are you stil here?
l have thoughts about -life... we try to measure up and always fall short of the goal -no matter what...the voices that replay in our minds.
the mirror of the reflecting hurtful past.
some of the greattest hearts of our time - have only become great, because of heart break and loose -

so what I do is -

Take out the trash -evn if it sneaks back in your colllection of thoughts.
Do away with all the old repeat messages, negative messages you were given about yourself.
The strangest thing is to replay them is easier some days,when we hate ourselves ~~
although sometimes on a sunny day -suddenly in our minds a dark cloud comes overhead with a 100 percent chance of - a dark night of the soul -on the way - on those nights- do not allow yourself to be alone...

If someone has told you that you are worthless, undeserving, dense or unattractive, that is their voice - screaming out their hurts clawing out to hurt you or anyone that happens to be in the area.

No one has a right to judge you or belittle you. especially ourselves!
We are all struggling to get by in this world, and no one else has all the answers. Honor your own truth. In your own heart, you know who you are . . . don't let another take that power away from you. Love yourself.

I believe in GOD -and GOD has a purpose for our lives -even if we not realize what it is...:Heart:
I go through this weekly - and I tell myself and others I love- I'm sorry Forgive Yourself . . . and Move On.
Okay . . . so maybe you/ and I did screw up on a few things, maybe even on most things. Some of us have to learn the hard way. There are really no failures or mistakes, just opportunities for growth. Usually something good does come out of our mistakes. So learn from them, don't repeat them, forgive yourself, and move on.
luv,

Ps -
 

Enjoy Feeling Fine.

Remember when/if you have had a toothache,earache the flu, or a migraine.

Remember the relief you felt when you first started to feel better? Until we are sick, we rarely appreciate how good it feels to feel well. Be glad you are well.
so just hold on - slow down
and breathe deeply -you are not in a rush to finish -like some type of race?
breathe in LOVE
exhale - Fear...

same boat
 

I tried to commit suicide 4 times since the age of 16. the last attempt being oct 31 2007 i remember everything before i feel to the ground than i just saw rainbow colors and i was happy thinking this was going to be it the pain and suffering were over. but than i woke up in icu with a bunch of tubes down my mouth and cried because i was unsuccessful they gave me a 25% chance to live and it hurt my family so much especially my kids than i was 302ed to an impatient program against my will which was like a prison for a week there isnt a day that goes by that i dont think about it sincerlly the sad on (Denise)

:grouphug:I'TS BEEN A YEAR SINCE I LOST MY BROTHER TO SUICIDE. LIFE WITH HIM WAS FUN AND HE WAS SUCH A WONDERFUL GUY. NOW MY LIFE IS CHANGED FOREVER. KNOW THAT YOU ARE LOVED.

(((Flame))) come back and talk to us...we really do "get it" here. :hug:

I also tried to take my life
 

I took about every pill I could find which was a lot of pills. I was in a coma for 3 days. I have yet been forgiven after 31/2 years. By my huband and 3 adult kids. I would love to just get in our car and leave and start a new life somewhere else. So I wouldn't be judge any more every single minute of my life.

I see you have located our crs forum clownie...welcome to NeuroTalk and I'm sorry for all the pain you are in. I'm sure taking all those pills was your way of trying to end the pain...not your life. Sorry people are judging you. :grouphug: