You can. You will.

I'TS BEEN A YEAR SINCE I LOST MY BROTHER TO SUICIDE. LIFE WITH HIM WAS FUN AND HE WAS SUCH A WONDERFUL GUY. NOW MY LIFE IS CHANGED FOREVER. KNOW THAT YOU ARE LOVED.

(((Flame))) come back and talk to us...we really do "get it" here.

I'm new to NeuroTalk and Survivors of Suicide. I was invited by Alffe (thanks!).

My brother, Ronnie, committed suicide on January 6, 2010. He was 38, a year younger than me. I miss him every day. Every day.

I haven't had the chance yet to read through the other introductions, but I think it's safe to say we all have something in common. I look forward to meeting many of you and sharing stories of our loved ones.

Mike

I'm so glad you've joined us my friend, but I'm afraid you'll not be properly welcome up here... can you post this below too? *grin Although I could copy and paste you....

Hi,
So great to see a survivors of suicide support group out here! I've never reached out to strangers before but, I feel like my concerns may be dissmissed by my family. 1-24-08 I lost my beautiful brother to suicide, hate saying these words.............. he cut his own throat. I have an almost unnatural fear of anything around my neck, sweaters, scarves, necklaces ect. Now I may need surgery on my neck to remove a cervical rib, im terrified. I know I will see him in my wound. Has anyone else lost someone to this method? I feel alone- I feel the stigma and people have the most horrible look on their faces when I confess his method. Trying to decide if I should talk to someone before surgery?

[I am so sorry that you lost your brother in that way. It must be very difficult to come to terms with that. I know how it must effect your own mental state. Please, do seek out help, from a councilor, or psychologist, if his death is preventing you from seeking the help with your own medical condition. I also want to tell you I have had several operations on my throat for Cervical fusion. The scars are not noticealbe, they blend in to the folds of your neck. You won't see it at all after awhile. Please take care of yourself. Again, I do understand how difficult the loss of your brother was. It is OK to tell people on this site how he passed away, nobody will think in a negative way anything you say. You will only find compassion and a group of people who will care about you. I wish you all the best with your medical condition. ginnie

I've tried to commit suicide twice. the first time was in 2002 when my depression was off the map, so I took a bottle of valium and the thought 'bugger I didn't really want to do that' and called my other half. The second time was very different, I had just got my depression under control, I was working full time and going back to uni to study for my MSc and then I started having problems with my knee. I had to have an op and that led to my crps. I had already been off work about 5 months and I met a friend, had too much wine, had a fight with my husband and just decided I couldn't take it any more. so I took every tablet I could get hold of, including around 60 200mg lithium tablets, about 20 pregabalin, all my antidepressants and god knows what else. Fortunately my body decided it wasn't ready to go and I started throwing up. Technically I shouldn't be here as I had more than enough lithium alone in my system to kill me. Most days I'm very glad that it didn't work and ever since then we've kept my drugs in a locked box that only my husband has the key for. Unfortunately since he got promoted he is generally away at least two nights a week, sometimes more, leaving me with access to more of my medication. I'm ok at the moments, I'm on a pretty even keel, but I have SAD which means that come the dark nights I get down again. I've got no one to talk to about this as they all change the subject when I try and bring it up, anyway thanks for letting me vent! xxxx

since my head injury I have attepted suicide 2 times. once with 60 Xanax. ended up running into the street screaming insanely and went to hospital then psych ward. second time tried to hang myself from vent but vent ripped out of ceiling. damaged neck muscles and went to hospital then psych again.'
its been seven years since injury. the symptoms never get better or easier to deal with. I'd be lying if I said I would never attempt suicide again. I don't now what the future holds. sleep most of the day for fear of the symptoms.

I used to post on the bipolar board, but haven't in a very long time...

I'm a 34 yo married F (no children). BP II with anxiety disorder, disabled because of symptoms of MS.

On Dec. 23rd I slit both my wrists and the crook of my arm, and OD'ed on a cocktail of 3 prescription meds.
So, I found myself in the hospital for 3 days and voluntarily committed until I was transferred to a medical ward for treatment for a MS relapse.
I was very angry that I was still alive.

I have a pretty good idea of how it all went awry. To me it's a long story, but I can also tie it up in a neat package (see bold):

My usual warning that I was going manic was that I wold stop off for a beer before going home, and end up getting home after last call. Not good for a marriage...
Just as these incidents were increasing, I got ****** off at lithium because I developed hyperparathyroidism in addition to the hyperthyroidism it already caused. My NP decided to try me on Seroquol, but when I titrated up to 150mg I started passing out. The NP told me to stop taking it. I scheduled and rescheduled appointments, but never went back.

On no medication at all, drinking more, I left my husband and moved in with my dad (BIG mistake). Oh, and I got a DUI.

They released me on Depakote even though it rendered me virtually blind. My NP was throwing out the names of other drugs, but oddly enough, I asked for lithium. I'm dry now. It's the devil I know. If other s/e come up, or lithium's not doing the job, we can revisit the issue.

I'm safe now, I can see, and my husband and I have reconciled. I'll never wear short sleeves again, but it's not all bad news.