Good morning Jeni...I just wanted to send you some positive thoughts for "peace and energy" as my neice used to say, and I hope you will check in after seeing your dr. today.

Weather report looks chilly by you!

I've been offline and have barely any words to say to anyone at the moment for various reasons, but I saw your message here Jenni and I wanted to just send you a hug and some extra strength to get through this very difficult time in your life. One day you'll look back, my dear, and you'll realize just how strong you are and how sometimes it's these times that actually help us to learn more about ourselves and about other people and what the world is all about. It's a darn tough world I know. I think we all know! However, it's also filled with the most amazing moments. Look for those moments. It's a little like that old saying about "smell the roses".

I've had the most shocking few days for a number of reasons I'm not going to talk about right now, but today I went to visit my old neighbour Jo. She's originally from South Africa. She's 87 I think. Lives alone. Her husband died many moons ago. He was actually a Psychiatrist and she a Nurse. We did a tour of her garden. She's not doing so well but always gets out there in her garden. I keep an eye on her. She's a real darling. I told her how wonderful her roses smelled. She said she couldn't smell them at all. Anyway, I came back home to my place with a heap of cuttings of some little plants, a rose bush only about 9 inches tall that she'd struck herself, plus the petals of the most wonderful smelling rose. (I'll use the petals for potpourri.) We had a great time, just wandering and chatting. I smelled the roses today. My friend Jo actually grew them.

What did I learn today? I learned that the good and wonderful things outweighed the bad. It's not always like that though. I have to purposely look for the good sometimes.

Talk to your friends. When you're stronger, you might find it helpful to get involved in helping others. What I call "a certain sensitivity" goes a long, long way. You're ultra sensitive right now, but that will change and you'll get stronger. Keep busy. Believe in yourself.

Please make sure that you don't compare youself with other people.
I did this,and it sort of triped me up for a long time. God made you,
and he wants you to be comfortable with the real you. If you try to
be someone else,it will never work.

May God bless you,and it will take more patience to find the real
you. This subject just sort of came to mind.

Has anyone come up to you,and talked about your strengths,and talents.
I hope that you see the positive,and strong areas in your life.

I'm sorry that you are going through a bad time. Sometimes the healing takes place over a gradual period of time. Please don't give up. BF

Dear Jen-so many good word in this thread and also in this forum. Maybe it will help you if you pick out some that really seem to touch you or have good ideas you think would work-and write them down in a notebook.

I have a "survival purse". It is pink and white-I put all kinds of little notebooks and cards in it-things that are good to read when you a are having bad/sad/scary thoughts.

Many times we have an answer inside of our head or heart if we can just pull it out. Sometimes it works to pretend you have a friend who is like you and think of the advice you would give your friend if she felt like you do.

Hang on-that's what is important...

((Jen)) Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers

((BJ)) Loved that quote!

((Sue)) I love the idea of your survial purse..think I am going to put together one for my darker days. Thanks!

Hey everyone, I am finally back. I spent the last 18 days in a psych unit and 1 night in the ICU. I took a very serious overdose and had to be rushed to the hospital and then I had to be intebated. I don't remember much of it, just taking the pills and then waiting an hour to see what would happen then went to my dad and told him what had happened. He called 911 and they were there within minutes...then that was it, i blacked out and don't really remember anything after that.
I just wanted to thank everyone for their kind words and thoughts. I have been thinking of you all and wondering how you are all doing. Know that my good thoughts and prayers are with you all, love and hugs to youall.
Love
Jen

(((Jen))) So how are you feeling now? I'm glad to see you post. Please don't do that again!

Very thankful that you told your dad, very very thankful.

((Jen)) I am so relieved to hear from you I am also very thankful you were able to talk to your Dad. How are you feeling now? You are and will remain in my prayers. Please keep talking Jen

I am feeling pretty good. This is my first night home, and not quite sure how it will go, but so far so good. I won't be returning to work till August unless I find a new job, which I really hope. Thanks everyone for caring for me, I really appreciate it.

Hi Jen, I'm a junior member too

Even though we've never talked, I'm really glad to see you back. I just found this board and am glad that I did. I look forward to reading more posts and offering you all the support that I can.

Take care

Manda