I wonder if this well I'm in is gonna get any deeper...
I wonder if I'm gonna lose the speck of light that i can barely see...
I wonder why I am here...
I wonder if anyone would notice if I wasn't....

I wonder if Abasaki will see the rope that's being lowered down that pit...

I wonder if Abasaki recognizes the speck of light as HOPE...(((Abasaki)))

I wonder if Abasaki is male or female...young or old...and I also wonder if he/she would like to talk about suicide....or "IT" as we sometimes refer to suicide....

That old elephant in the room....:Sigh:

I wonder why I made more of that Sinful Chocolate Sauce....now we'll need to have ice cream to put under it....:rolleyes:

Hey Abbie. I read your other thread. Can you get your friend to come over right away? Call someone. Sounds like a very depressing situation you're living it and topped off with such dreadful pain. Pain, and longterm pain at that, as you're experiencing is enough to make any of us feel the way you are right now. Is it possible for your friend to come over? You need to get that pain under control. That doesn't sound as if it's been an easy thing for you but there must be some other thing that they can try to help ease that awful rsd pain. Please call your friend. Call an ambulance if you need to.

I look at it this way... it's not right to have to struggle through another day and night with feeling as badly as you are right now. You need to be somewhere else where you're being cared for. I know that might not be possible, but maybe your friend can help you organize to get you to hospital right away. If you're feeling this badly, then it is an emergency.

Please let us know how you're doing. I really don't know what to say. I have lots of suggestions about tomorrow and next week, but all I can say about today is to hang on there and try to make plans to get that pain under control with a new doctor, or a hospital stay or something similar.

I feel for you, Abbie... keep on hanging on there.

I wonder if Alffe knows I've seen the rope...
I wonder if the knot I've tied is gonna hold....
I wonder if Lara & Alfee know I am thankful they reached out....
I wonder if everyone else knows that I am thankful to them too....

I wonder why I am suddenly hungry for ice cream with chocolate sauce when I really don't like chocolate.... but it sounds good now. :icecream:


Alffe... i'm female...40 but told look mid 20's and feel like 90.
Lara... my friend is with her spouse and kids out of town.. i thought i would be ok to be alone.... :Sigh:

I wonder if anyone can imagine that I was a girl guide and loved learning about knots and fire starting and all those things. :rolleyes: Interestingly, I still use a lot of those little skills to this day. The rope ladder reminded me of all this. My children sometimes ask me how the heck I know something, and I just say that I was a girl guide and our motto was "be prepared" so then I teach them as well. ;)

I wonder if you know, Abbie, that I'm really sorry to hear that your friend is away right now. Sometimes when I get in that darn hole, I have to build myself an imaginary rope ladder as well. I have my old aches and pains and they feel bad enough some days, but I don't have really severe pain like you would and I hope that can be a priority when you're a little stronger ... to try to find someone or something different to help you with that pain management.

If you're feeling really badly during the night, please please phone a hotline and talk to them.

(((HUG)))

I wonder if Lara knows that I grinned and grinned reading about her as a girl guide...reminded me that 1,000 yrs ago I was a Blue Bird! (that's a jr. scout)

I also wonder if Lara remembers reaching for our friend reyn...trying our best to pull her up out of the pit....

I wonder what level of pain Abbie has today and if she has shared that information with anyone......

I wonder if Abbie will remember that we are here for her if she wants to talk..

I wonder who will please start a new wonder thread?....:D

I wonder if I will ever see anything as beautiful as Australia

I wonder how grandma Allfe feels about her grandchild getting a license

I wonder how I will feel when my grandson gets his

I wonder how many hiding places Allfe has left to hide the goodies :D

I wonder if we will have snow in Michigan for Christmas

I wonder how many years it has been since we didn't have snow this late