[posted twice. one on wonder thread]

Hey Abbie. I read your other thread. Can you get your friend to come over right away? Call someone. Sounds like a very depressing situation you're living it and topped off with such dreadful pain. Pain, and longterm pain at that, as you're experiencing is enough to make any of us feel the way you are right now. Is it possible for your friend to come over? You need to get that pain under control. That doesn't sound as if it's been an easy thing for you but there must be some other thing that they can try to help ease that awful rsd pain. Please call your friend. Call an ambulance if you need to.

I look at it this way... it's not right to have to struggle through another day and night with feeling as badly as you are right now. You need to be somewhere else where you're being cared for. I know that might not be possible, but maybe your friend can help you organize to get you to hospital right away. If you're feeling this badly, then it is an emergency.

Please let us know how you're doing. I really don't know what to say. I have lots of suggestions about tomorrow and next week, but all I can say about today is to hang on there and try to make plans to get that pain under control with a new doctor, or a hospital stay or something similar.

I feel for you, Abbie... keep on hanging on there.

Abbie, I know you can't do all of these things right now 'cause it would be impossible because of your pain, but you could try doing some of them.


http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/showthread.php?t=4982
What to do if you are alone and thinking about suicide.
[From Alffe's post at top of page]


What to do if you are alone and thinking about suicide.

Sit down and breathe deeply. Breathe deeply again and again.

Turn on the lights or open a door or window.

Pick up the phone and call a friend, even if you have to call collect. Talk to the operator if you don't have strength to dial the number.

Say your name out loud. Say your friends' names out loud. Repeat and combine these names with your name.

Cry, even if it means weeping bitterly. Scream; "God, why am I in such despair? Why did you do this to me? Tell me why."

Pray. Say: "God, help me. Please give me a reason to live."

Touch yourself. Feel the rapid beating of your heart.

Turn on the television, radio, or stereo.

Close your eyes and think about The Wizard of Oz or chocolate ice cream or giraffes.

Get out a photo album and look at the pictures of your family and friends.

If you have a pet, pick it up and hold it tightly.

When you have the strength, get out from where you are. Go to the movies.
Go to the shopping mall. Go to a neighbor's or a friend's house. If you
are afraid to drive, run as fast as you can for as long as you can.

Get yourself to where there are people.


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Taken from "A Reason to Live" by Melody Beattie

Abbie is it...so you are a female. (I had a 50 percent chance of being right)*grin
I am so sorry that you are in such pain and understand that you don't want to die....you want the pain to end.

I think you have a good friend in k....live for her if you can't find another reason right this minute....or live for Lara (she's a wonderful friend and has been here for me for years....she's one of the reasons I'm still alive and kicking)

It's hard to have hope when you are in such pain but trust me...hope is in your soul. (((Abbie)))