[MandaC]

Hi All,

As EVERYONE knows, I'm struggling. I'm quite open about it. And as EVERYONE knows, I've really taken my loved ones' "negative" reaction to me and my "illness" very badly. I feel like everyone wants to get away from me and hates me (truly hates me).

If you have one, can you please tell a story about how someone pulled through for you unexpectedly when you were going through your tough times. I just need some hope that I can rebuild relationships that I've ruined. Whenever I hear Abbie talk about how she's reconnected with people, it makes me feel a lot better. So I figured I'd see if anyone else has a positive experience as well.

Just a thought. If you don't have time, no worries.

Hope you all are well.

Manda

[mistiis]

http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/thread62585.html

I'm going to try to find a few more when I have time.

Wish I had the time to post some more to you. There is hope, I can tell you that for sure.

[barbo]

Originally Posted by MandaC

Hi All,

As EVERYONE knows, I'm struggling. I'm quite open about it. And as EVERYONE knows, I've really taken my loved ones' "negative" reaction to me and my "illness" very badly. I feel like everyone wants to get away from me and hates me (truly hates me).

If you have one, can you please tell a story about how someone pulled through for you unexpectedly when you were going through your tough times. I just need some hope that I can rebuild relationships that I've ruined. Whenever I hear Abbie talk about how she's reconnected with people, it makes me feel a lot better. So I figured I'd see if anyone else has a positive experience as well.

Just a thought. If you don't have time, no worries.

Hope you all are well.

Manda

I wouldn't call it unexpectedly, but I had a breakdown in the 70's and Alffe and her entire family wrapped their arms around me and my daughter and wouldn't let go until they were sure we could swim. I am eternally grateful to all of them.

[DMACK]

3rd of Feburary 1993...............11.45PM...I took a serated bread knife and cut my left hand practically off..[no feeling/bar pins and needles as a daily reminder in left hand, from the wrist down

only my Dad rang a week after hearing .....then one brother [im the youngest of nine]...

it wasnt mentioned by the rest of my family until 1996 @ my dads funeral.

My wife left me for 1 week...and returned [we are still together]

her family [bar her mother] never spoke to me for two years..............

................

in 1996 i was on the verge of
in 1997 i was on the verge of
in 2002 i was on the verge of
in 2005 i was on the verge of
in 2006 i was on the verge ofxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
in 2009 i was on the verge of

every time.... i took myself to hospital [A+E/ER]............

IN THE 06 VERSION .................i got diagnosed bI-POLAR.............my wife was called in and her in-put helped with a diagnosis..................
without my wife i would be dead..........

it is possible to meet someone who maybe does'nt understand....but can cope with your issues................my wife struggles ....................just like i do................

but we do it together.................


MandaC
THE MAIN THING IS TO............LEARN TO COPE ON YOUR OWN............when you reley on others ............youre putting all your eggs in one basket.................

but its better to smash your own.........[no guilt involved]


David
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pudOFG5X6uA

[MandaC]

your posts have made me cry...but tears of happiness for once....david.....your post....i have no words.......thank you for showing that side of your life to me. it has just brought me hope beyond words. thank you. thank you. thank you. what a beautiful offering to me. thank you.

thank you mistiis and barbo....thank you!

how do you learn to cope on your own (ha, somewhat contradicting that i should ask this)? do you go through hell until you get frustrated enough that you realize you're the best person you know? how do you get to the point where you realize it's all you and no one else? do you get to it through frustration? anger? hopelessness? happiness? my emotions are so confused right now.

[Alffe]

That's excellent advice David...we shouldn't put all our eggs in one basket until we are sure that basket is strong enough to hold them.

I remember an old thread about sensitivity...going looking for it.

I found it....http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/sh...ghlight=Listen

[MandaC]

the way you described michael - he seems like an incredible person.

the example you gave about lassie was so beautiful.

there are a couple of lines in kurt cobain's suicide note that get me every time:

"but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone. There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too ******* sad......Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess."

[Alffe]

Our Michael didn't leave a suicide note so we were left to speculate about why he would do such an awful thing.

[MandaC]

I can't imagine the pain, Alffe. I admire your strength.
I'm glad that you've allowed us to see a little bit into his life.

[GmaSue]

so many truths...