I have run and run and run to get many things done. hard things, things that required life and death choices for my animals, and choices that were stressful, such as selling my home for much less than its worth, simply to be able to move on, and then lets not even mention my family is behaving badly. Mom had angioplasty, sis swears she herself is near death and I should love her now (read wants money) and my brothers are fighting and wont talk to mom. Everyone turns to me for an update. Rich neighbors up the street seem to think I am some sort of free caretaker for the winter, and I had planned a trip, and the DH came home to tell me about a wonderful chance to go hunting with some guys he hasnt seen in years. He was like a little kid he was so happy. I didnt tell him I had book plans for ME to leave that week. *sigh*

Is anyone else running on an empty cup? I called a local friend to take my DH to the shooting range today. I slipped money in his pocket and gave him permission to eat what ever he wants (in other words be gone past lunch!) Frequently when DH is home, his to do list overwhelms mine. I will be cleaning out a drawer, and he will say "can you come help me for a sec?" and then an hour later, I can go back to my own to do list only to hear "hey honey?!"

I am growing angry, and frustrated and well...quite sad. I know its a matter of not taking good care of me, by doing me me and oh yeah me things. How do I tell my wonderful, supportive caring DH to GO AWAY! please, just leave me be for awhile! Im tired, because if anyone comes near my circle it usually ends up being work for me.