[SallyC]

I think it's because I've been sick recently, that I feel this way, but I'm not a happy camper. Right now, the only thing that may truely make me happy, is to be younger and MS free.

I talk about contentment and most of the time I am, but not at this time, for some reason. Maybe I need to up my prozac? I'm sure that is where my contentment lies. If it weren't for Prozac, I'd be one anxious, depressed, miserable, messed up kid.

In the last couple of weeks, I wake up in the morning or from my nap, confused and sad....not wanting to get up. If I didn't have to piddle, I probably wouldn't.

My life is such a complete bore and yet I hate hobbies and projects. I'm a lazybutt and normally happy to be just that. I'm not lonely, just purposeless..

Sorry about the pity party. It helps me to get this stuff out there and bounce it off of my friends, to see what bounces back. I'm sure when I'm back to 100% feeling better, this will all go away and I'll be content again....not hap hap happy, but content.

[Dejibo]

I wish many good things for you dear sal pal.

I find many days that I am rudderless and adrift on this strange lake called MS. Too tired to row to the shore, and too upset and turned around to plot my next course, I sometimes find that allowing myself to drift will bring me new vistas.

I hope you feel better soon.

[Riverwild]

Ahhh Sal...hugs for you!
What's Pal got to say about this?
I know for me, I get up and piddle and then get back in bed and I don't care who thinks I shouldn't. When I feel better, I get up and shower and figure out what to do next.
I think you need to get the hunks back in there for a quick pickmeup! Anything need hammering?

[Friend2U]

Awe, Sally ((((()))))...I hope things will look up for you soon!

[Kitty]

Sally, I think I know what you mean. I feel the same sometimes. And my physical condition definitely plays a big part of how I feel mentally. When I don't feel "good" everything else is compromised. One day I feel pretty good and stuff doesn't bother me too much and then the next day I feel yucky and everything seems hopeless.

My life is pretty boring, too. At least compared to how it used to be. But.....my idea of excitement and fun has changed so much over the past 10 years that I'm not sure I could enjoy my "pre-MS" life right now. This stupid disease makes me feel much older than I really am.

I guess I don't have any solutions to offer you....just an understanding shoulder.

[Kitty]

Originally Posted by Riverwild

I think you need to get the hunks back in there for a quick pickmeup! Anything need hammering?

[Dejibo]

Originally Posted by Riverwild

Ahhh Sal...hugs for you!
What's Pal got to say about this?

um...maybe I missed out on sumfin. isnt Sal Pal a nickname for sally? like Sally my friend? or did I lose a bit of memory when I should have retained it?

Im sorry if I called you by someone elses nick sal.

[Kitty]

Pal is her dog, Dej!

We do call Sally "Sal Pal".....among other things!

[Dejibo]

Originally Posted by Kitty

among other things!

Lol, ty for pointing out that I put sally in the dog house. poor sal, she takes so much abuse here.

[Debbie D]

Sorry you're feeling low, dear...
I personally think that when I feel down the way you are describing, it's because I am repressing a lot of anger. Anger about being sick, getting old, and just not enjoying life. (oh, and those new wrinkles...ugh).
That's when it's great to go to bed, pull my covers up to my chin, and hibernate all day. Sometimes it feels like I'm taking a breather from the everyday humdrum when I do this.

I guess this is the part of MS when we have to really fight through it. Blech!