Today has been truly a mixed bag of tricks. She slept and wouldn't wake up at all until this afternoon. Mom has a dear friend that lives in a different senior complex than Moms and they hadn't seen each other for a good while. i knew we had to get these two ladies together. We had already made arrangements to pick he p this afternoon and take her to see Mom at the nursing home as a suprise. Well all of that changed when they discharged ehr and put Mom in hospice. since Mom has had so few times that she is lucid I wasn't sure if we could make this happen. So Mom woke up this afternoon, said she wanted to see her so my DH and i went out to get her. They truly enjoyed the visit. Before, during and after 3 more people came in and Mom just got totally exhausted. Her hadns are shaking so and it is so hard for her to hold a phone but she sefuses to let me hold it and ti doesn't have a speaker phone. So Mom yells at my brother and says he is treating her like an infant. I know and my brother knows this isn't Mom. he is a hospice chaplain and I have read the material that at the end of life sometimes they revert to behavior that they were never allowed to have and it is all pent up inside them so it just spews out and the family gets the bad end f the stick. Maybe she is just exhausted from all the visits. But this weekend the WHOLE crew is coming in starting with tow couples tonight. One of them has a very loud voice and the other lives her in town and has chosen not to visit even though we have told him her situation. So now it's to late to see Grandma as Grandma was. Hopefully a good nap will help. I just wish i could take one to! Thanks for listening.

Oh, the doctor said this morning it is now less than one week. it's going to fast yet now fast enough. You now what I mean. All is know is that this is hard. i have told so many people that I feel I am the lucky one because I live here and have more time with her. But yet their memories will be of the Mom they ahd at Christmas, the sweet, caring, loving Mom and Grandma. My memories are of a confused, very sharp when she is in pain but still has glimpses of the sweet loving Mom.

Some one out at the desk has an awful smelling perfume on.

hugs,,doydie

My thoughts and prayers are with you at this difficult time, sweetie...

Even though at this time you think you will only remember her at her end, in time the good memories will override those, and you will remember her and bless her in your thoughts. You will also feel grateful that you were there for her.
Those of us who have experienced this always have a hole in our hearts. My mom passed when I was 20-she passed at about 4:30 am-I think she wanted to be alone so she wouldn't burden my sis and me...I miss her still, and feel so grateful to have had her for my mom...

It has been precious to watch Mom. She will be sleeping and then just start smiling. I wish there was a way to know who she is talking to and what they are saying but maybe it's private and needs to be said before Mom can go. So I will just let the mistique go on because I know some day some one will be watching me do the same.

Hugs to you doydie

hugs. thank you for the update. Its one of my first stops in the AM to come see how you are doing.

Doydie! It is such a difficult time and yet there is something so beautiful in it. My Dad did the same thing as your Mom. I sat with him for a few hours the day before he passed. As I sat there I watched him in awe and wonderment. His lips would move and I, like you, wondered who he was talking to. I didn't want to disturb him and talk too much as this was his journey Home.

Please know that I am praying for all of you!

Mom has had less times that she has been responsive yet she still has her spunk when she is awake. Tomorrow the little ones come. My 9 year old grand daughter had some tough times in school today but I thanks God for a wonderful teacher and guidance counselor that had tender and wise hearts. I'm sure the 4 year old will want to climb in bed with Grandma Pete. I will be nervous as she does it but know that if that's what she needs to do to say goodby that we must allow it. My brother who is a hospice chaplain will be the first one to get in tomorrow. Just liek me as an RN it's hard to change roles. He is afraid of what he will see. Will he see her through a sons eyes or a chaplains eyes

We both slept well. So I don't know if Mom is now 'sleeping well' because of disease or Morphine since I don't think she had any at all last night. If she did I was sound asleep and didn't hear them in here. the little ones will be here today

All the family was here today except one daughter and law and grand son. She tried so hard to stay awake today that she was in more pain so they had to keep on giving more Morphine. By the end of the evening they had given her 300 mg of Morphine. I hope she sleeps well tonight.. My two brothers who lie out of town and both have to drive 4 - 6 hours tomorrow both wanted to stay with her tonight. What precious memories will be made in that room tonight. She was very visibly weaker today. Tomorrow before everyone goes back home we are going to form a circle around her bed and pray. We have all given her permission to go. We are all ready for her to go. the woman in the bed isn't our Mom nay more but yet she still is in the way she showed us all love tonight. My little 4 year old grand daughter sat in Moms rollater beside her bed, held her hand and sang Jesus loves me to her. The 9 year old coldn't get enough courage to approach the bed even though she made several attempts. We know that tomorrow evening she may be gone.

Those rollaters sure make good extra seats!