[tamiloo]

I posted in the Spine Disorder area...but no one seems to want to respond...they are lurking...

I posted here because this is where all my buddy's are...

On April 18 I go to my doc for a surgical consult, for what will be my 5th back surgery and I'm scared to death!! I have two bulging disc and a vertibrae that is unstable...fusion time. He also wants me to bring all the op notes from the previous surgeries...

I have been in pain all my life because of the Spina Bifida and other factors. I know that I won't get pain relief from this surgery...I will exchange one kinda of pain for another. To walk or stand pains me greatly. Recovery after my last surgery was very painful...so I'm really scared to go under the knife again. It’s a catch 22...darned if I do and darned if I don't.

They need to put a zipper in my back!!!

I'm just scared and have too much going on and can't even get dressed without someone telling me too...I need to soon...take a shower maybe...a Xanax...