Well, Frank, it's the million-dollar question and probably only answered by the day/event. In my case, I'm determined to do certain things before I can't do them at all. It takes me a ridiculous amount of planning and an even more outrageous amount of time & energy to do most things.

When I really saw what is happening to me, I got more determined to do things knowing that it could kick my butt for long stretches of time. I made peace with it because I also know that I would hate myself for the rest of my life if I didn't make the effort and left myself with regrets.

So, I suppose, for me, I have chosen to go in those surges and accept the pay days as the cost of doing business. It feels good in my spirit when I look at the pics, or relive it with friends, or see it finished. It's a matter of feeling satisfied with myself.

So, my answer to myself is, if I want or need to do it, I will do it.

The standards I live by now are much lower then before, but that's probably not such a bad thing. My car does not really need to be washed once a week, and gone are the daily cleanings of the kitchen floor. It's probably a good thing that I can't see that well without bi-focals any more.

There are two reasons I do push myself, beyond my personal capabilities. One is that eventually it has to get done, so I take advantage of the days when I have the inclination. The other is because I get "cabin fever" after a while and just need to break loose . . . or I'll go crazy with boredom. I really like being productive and busy.

I plan to pay for it, but I don't always.

Cherie

thank you at least now deb can read this and see i am not odd

kudos to amn and dm the breast cancer signatures are wonderful and if anyone else had one i missed, well done ladies

joelle i hope you updated your meeting with motherinlaw looking forward to heaing how it went, now all i got to do is find the thread

I love it when I am full on. I love that feeling of normalcy,of my old self, and I go like a bat out he!!. I enjoy every minute of it as much as I can because I know I will crash and pay for those full on moments.

I have not mastered, nor do I think I ever will, the pace yourself mentality. When I feel good, minimal symptoms and fatigue, I am full on with the exception of the daily MS enforced nap. Do I pay for, of course I do. But the memory of those good days and what I accomplished in that day is so worth it.