[GladysD]

Hi All

Well, I am happy to report that I am alive and well. Let's see, got denied for my SSDI application...which is kind of a relief.

I left my DH for 10 days back in May. Woke up one morning and didn't feel well, we'd been on the rocks going into that time period, and I packed up the kids and off to my mom's we went. In that small amount of time I learned lots and lots and lots about myself. So much so, that the day after mother's day I found myself calling my dh on the phone and going home. He told me he'd stop drinking if we did, and it's been a good thing since.

Of course, my mother wasn't too thrilled about my leaving. And it has created an immense friction between us. Some things were said during that time period that I was over there have created a rift for us. I'm going to start therapy in August, so I've told her that I wanted to put 'us'(her & I) on hold until I got to that point. I realized there were a great deal of unresolved issues from the past that are lingering still to this day. Along with a style of relationship that isn't condusive to my happiness. imho, the control patterns need to change.

Recently had a 'virtual' on-line family squabble with some members of dh's family. I stated some feelings that I held for someone and that infuriated a couple of people...it was intense and the embers are still there. Then this morning, after this wonderful on-line display of family dysfunction, my own cousin posted a scathing comment about how they 'see it.' I'm now 'null' to them...*sigh*.....

Well, I've noticed more of this alienation occurring since I've declared my home alcohol-free. Maybe that's part of it???

Well I just wanted to say Hello! I'll try to be around more often...Thanks for Listening...and just reading....