Ok,
So, y'all know how much I am going through, and how stressful things are and how I am much happier staying at home than going anywhere outside my home.

Well, I have a good friend who I have known for almost 20 years who is dying. He is in the hospital and his partner said this morning he is not sure about how much longer he has. My friend has AIDS. He has lived with it for 27 years and has been a strong ox until about a year ago when he started gong down hill.

Doctors say the fact that he got the disease in 1985 and is still alive is a miracle. I accepted his death many years ago and he knows Christ, that is the only thing that is important to me.

I saw him about two weeks ago. He is barely conscious now. His partner said he would like to see me and I will likely go see him this morning, but i don't want to. I have a hard time remembering people when were healthy when I see them on their deathbed. I saw my best childhood friend on his deathbed and thats the image I remember when I think of him, much more than the years we were friends.

This is more of a ramble than anything else. See how busy my mind is? no wonder I have the anxiety I do.

I gotta start a blog...