[Erin524]

I dont know if I'm having problems sleeping because of the IV steroids I had last week, or if it's just the normal insomnia.

Because of something that happened a few minutes ago, I wont be able to sleep now without leaving the lights on.

(disclaimer...this is NOT a political thread. My mentioning politics here is just background to help explain what happened)

I like politics, and there's a guy named Machosauce (Alonzo Rachel) on a website called PJTV that posts videos with commentary about politics. (not going to go into the political stuff here, just telling you about the website for some background)

I was just there, and noticed that he'd posted about 3 or 4 new videos. So, I was watching them, they're usually pretty good. Bit of comedy to them.

I get to one of them, and he'd posted a warning about graphic video in it. The last time he did that, it was just a little blip of video of a girl in Iran who had been shot and killed during some riots. I'd seen the video on tv and while it's creepy and graphic it doesnt strike terror into me quite the way that I'm freaked right now.

So, I'm watching his commentary video, and all of a sudden the graphic part of the video came on. It was the video that some terrorists had posted several years back of them beheading a reporter. I've managed to never see this video. Ever. I've come close on another occasion, but managed to close the browser window in time to not see or hear anything.

It took me a second to realize what it was, and I'm on a Mac, and am still not used to going to the opposite side of the screen to close a browser, so I just ran out of the room and managed to not see the video.

Unfortunately, I heard some of it before I put my fingers in my ears and started humming to block it out. (I couldnt come back into my room for several minutes...)

Back when that murder first happened, I managed to not see the video, but heard a reporter describe it on tv, and my boyfriend told me that he'd seen it, and to never ever ever watch it if I can help it.

I cannot really express how much just the still pictures from the beginning of that particular video freaks me out, if I were to ever see the rest of the video I'd probably need therapy for years. Having heard the little bit that I did hear, now I cant get that out of my head. I'm actually shaking.

Does anyone else think that that particular video needs to be removed from the internet?? (I think the people who murdered that reporter need to be removed from this planet, and some of them probably already have)

I'm not going to be able to sleep at all now. (I'm also probably never going back to PJTV.com again because I dont want to run into that video again) I think I'll go curl up into a fetal ball in the corner and rock back and forth for awhile...