Today I....
......... hope Barb has a great time in France and that she has enough energy to have lots of fun!!!

......... Glad Jo finally got her compuuetr up and runnnig and will get my addresses out to you as soon aas possible!

........ Great to see COOP around the board and so great to hear about his new beginning in life my best wishes to him and his bride

......... Think Olecyn has enough pain, lest be tortuered by these techs. hope you are feeling better

........... Victoria, I hope your move brings about peace and harmony, maybe the distance will help out with your family relations!

And to all TOSers may I wish eack and everyone a Great day free of pain Mark-n-Goober

LOL- Mark the darn puter is still hit and miss!

Linux OS works and XP works but niether one is perfect yet...

but email is set and working on both OS.

Today I was wondering if anybody tried a Morpine pump... Doc is sending me to a pain management Doc and this is one of his suggestions, not sure I want that strong of a med in me

Mark,

The only time I had a morphine pump was after my surgery in the hospital and it then of coarse was great. I don't know how it would be in a daily life. I would think kinda tough.

Peggy

Peg the way I understand it is that it goes into the spinal column, therefore no break through to the bloodstream.... I was just wondering how the worked???

I wish anyone who tries the intrathecal pump, surgery or the SCS lots of pain relief.

All I can say is that
I had experience with Morphine with my cancer surgeries
It is the only drug that has worked on me
I say go for the morphine pump
And to hell with more surgeries.

Only my experience and thoughts.

Today I was writing to Johanna and was trying to explain that I am going to try to approach things differently because the last several weeks I have been in a place that has been scary and reminicent of the beginning.

And in the beginnng I tried going to a very gentle and understand soul for some hypno therapy. We would often talk for an hour prior to the hypnosis to focus where the hypnosis should be directed. I think it helped me to relax and find some peace.

So yesterday I went back to review the notes I had taken during those sessions and just wanted to share with everyone.

Maybe something will strike a cord, maybe not, maybe you will find it corny but at the time some of the thoughts gave me peace

So here goes....( in no specific order)

Today I will...

Let go of judgement ..of myself, my condition and pain

The mind creates complexity, the mind is not peaceful, it prejudges

Be more loving of myself

Find value in everything

Find a purpose in each day each moment

Choose to heal instead of need to know

Stop needing to know about my illness and obsessing for control

Wanting control implies not having it

I will let go and find out what will happen

Can I really let go of what I think and know and maybe just maybe allow it to be better than what I think it is

The past and the future reside only in the mind...joy exists in the now. Choice only exists in the here and now.

Evolve at your own pace

Fear comes from limits

Fear is reactive

Fear doesn't come from the spirit

Fear is toxic and exaggerates pain



So many of us lose our old selves... dont...Choose to be positive, choose to contibute , choose to be Shelley or Peg or Dabbo or Dawn or Jo or BB or DiMarie or Fish

Near the end of our time together, my hypnotist told me write a letter to my body ...thank it for being, for being patient and tell it how much you love it unconditionally. I think maybe I will do that tonight after all this time.

I like that shelley - it makes sense to me.

Fear & anxiety == stress = more pain

and do any of us need any extra pain?
No I don't think so- LOL

Today I'm happy that my computer and I have reached an agreement to be friends again - LOL

Xp is working
Linus OS is working too- but I'm not going to drive myself batty trying to set both up at once anymore.
wireless is working for both OS

So XP is my focus now to get as much of my data rebuilt - plus I did just buy the new Quicken that came out so I need to use it.