Hey guys, sorry, one of those posts....

So last time I talked to my surgeon's office they advised I should try to do some normal people activities, you know...try to drive a little more, simulate a day at work, etc.

So I tried to live like a normal person and it was bearable until I pulled the "a day at the office" stunt. OMG, I haven't had nerve pain in my arms in months, but they are back. The worst part is the pain never fully went away and it's been well over a week.

Needless to say that made me anxious which made me hurt even more. Apparently that is related to the blood pressure and too much blood running through those veins that are not fully used to the flow?

Honestly, I'm tired of trying to understand this horrible disease, I mean I had two surgeries, did everything under the sun...I don't understand why things still don't work properly. Yes, I am grateful I am better but the reality is I'm still not able to work or live a completely normal life.

I can't stop obsessing about the future and my failed life.