The closest I have come to a GD experience is going to a World Series game. Every single person attending had a s.eating grin on their faces, totally extatic, talking with strangers, all decked out in (team) colors... a true joy to experience.

Yep Tam, the 'spinners' were a trip unto themselves. I was a taper, the elite. No dirt surfer unwashed masses for me... I was toting $$$ recording equipment, managing battery swaps and tape flips durring drums/space, fending off twirlers and stoned-out folks from crashing into equipment... got to meet Bobby and Phil and Jerry and Billy...

"...ahhhhh memories. We will enjoy them." - Primat Conehead

Tam.. ok here goes (I'm about to start reciting the Greek alphabet.. alpha beta gamma..oops...) “To do what ought to be done, but would not have been done unless I did it, I thought to be my duty.”
I've taken that to mean that if I see something that I feel needs to be done, I should take it upon myself to do it. Could he have put it more plainly? hell yea, but that was in 1849, and well, they just used too many words.

I think that if I take the job I'm pursuing, I will be typing less, and talking on the phone more. Probably have to travel too, which I love, but I FREAKIN HATE too - since something alwayss goes wrong, and my pain lvls go way high. I too feel that I need to make "one more year's" income. I haven't thought about the physical cost of that too much, though I probably should.

Oh, I never made it to a Dead concert, but my dad went to 10 or 12 I think. And, my CD collection reflects that (I think I have 13-14 albums on various computers).

You're right... I have frequently had a hard time seeing the forest for the trees. Something I've struggled with for my whole life. Balls to the wall, all of the time. I have gotten better about letting certain things go, but its a constant struggle. Shelley and I have had several conversations about this and TOS. I'm convinced that me trying to do to much to fix the problem put me in a funk when I thought I was failing. So then, I didn't do a whole lot. Then, late this summer, it hit me like a ton of bricks what I had been doing and not doing. I came to the conclusion that I would take responsibility for what I have control over, and not more. I struggled coming to that decision for about forever.

anywho.... more ramblings from dabbo.... sorry