When I went to work today I found out my one parent has passed away by her own hand. She was schedzophrenic. (sp) I thought she was doing very well when I last saw her, but understand last week things were not well with her. She usually pays a week in advance and this past week did not pay. The visit night had been switched, so I was not there.

This has devestated so many of us, in the program, her family, and support groups and her church.
I am in shock and feel like my chest is crushed.
Di
I had a hard time falling to sleep. Back to try again....

Hi Di.

How sad for you this happened. She must have felt tortured in her mind.
Most people don't understand this illness very well. How can we unless we suffer with it?

I am sorry her treatments didn't work.
This lady still needs our prayers as does her family and friends. It is so sad when mental OR physical illness does not respond to treatment - what a tragedy

How many children did this lady have and how old were they?

I have felt that crushing chest feeling when I received bad news lately.
I hope as each day passes that feeling will lift. I hope you get a chance to see her family.
This lady will no longer mental pain but those left behind will never forget.

Sometimes it just feel like there is no ........... Hope

((((((Di)))))),

I'm so sorry

I hate suicide. I believe you know my history -- been on both sides of suicide. Be 40 years this month since I lost my younger Brother.

It's taken me a lifetime to learn that the suicidal urge only lasts an instant. If we can get past that instant, we can survive. I wish -- I pray -- that we would teach as much about suicide as we do about wars and buying cars and mathematics and movies :SIGH:

I remember that feeling you're describing -- it's a feeling of absolute helplessness.

Di, you HAVE TO KNOW that that dear woman's life was better because you were in it. Don't blame yourself for anything. You gave of your soul and a lot of people don't.

I'll say a quiet prayer for her tonight. And for you, too, sugar. BIG HUGS. And love.

Barb

Hi Di,

You have to know my thoughts and prayers are with you and the family of this disturbed patient.

I understand as a nurse, that you have this crushing feeling I too have felt this when one of my patient dies. It is not your faullt by any means and you have no control over mental disease, not tht this makes it any easier......let the feeling out by having a good cry. get a box or two of tissues and a good box of chocolates and sit and let it out.......I use a sad movie and then it all comes out (the Notebook works well for me)....not to give you advice, only shareing my own....but then I guess I am giving advice to help heal your heart. You only have one and it must contine despite the devestation....DO NOT confuse this with me belittling the situation.....as I am not I have every sympathy as I have been on the brink of suicide and have tried to commit suicide at 18. it is not easy and she must have been suffering greatly....not your fault again.......

Take solace in our prayers and support and let it out girl.....we care and are here for you.

hugs and sending boxes of tissues and really really good chocolate....belgin.

Victoria

i am so sorry to hear this bad news. i think the key word is schizophrenic, i don't think anyone who does not have this disorder can really understand the reality she lived in. it is so hard on the program when suicide occurs despite all the help, and there are no easy answers. i just try to think of the people who are truly helped and who improve. take care of yourself and hug your loved ones extra tight.

Di,
Sorry to hear about that client and do hate to say it but if she was intent on commiting the action there is nothing really that you could have done. Give me a call if you want to talk about it !!! I am and will be awake, so after dropping Katie off @ school feel free !

Talk to you later ... Mark-n-Goober

My heart is heavy for you. I am sure you made this woman's life better while she was here.
monkee

My thoughts are with you and her family and friends.. May God comfort everyone through these difficult times..
((Hugs))
Dawn

((((Hugs))))

my thoughts and heartfelt prayers forher famliy and those she left behind.

di, there is a wonderful group on survivors of suicide here. lots of help and support. they may have ideas to help with the kids. and yourself.

suicide or even an attempt follows generations. as much help as they can get the better. reaching out like you did.

I know you care so deeply, for so many.
Thoughts and prayers for you and her family.