I just need to get it off my shoulders.

I've had a continuing, growing tic spell. It's been going on for 4 days now. I can't sit still--my shoulders always roll, my head always wobbles, and my legs and knees collapse into spasms. I haven't felt the urge to vocalize--yet!--but I almost wish I could "substitute" motor for vocal...I am exhausted. I can't take this much anymore.

My body aches everywhere.

My girlfriend told me to just let them out, but that's a huge issue for me. First of all, I have subconsciously conditioned myself to hold them in as tight as I can. I want to tic, but the desire to hide is much too strong....I want to just go crazy! The bent up energy is suffocating.

Secondly, when I can finally relax enough to the point where I can exert myself, it's much too late, and we live in a very small apartment with neighbors who complain about us doing dishes--what would they say to barking, screaming, dinosaur roars?

I talk about this to Litara, and she totally gets it--because she has spasms and twitches herself. But in the end, I am not relieved. I am about ready to shut down....because my body is overexerted and beyond exhaustion.

What do I do in times like this? In class today, the woman next to me gave me the stink eye...I tried to tell her after class, but I couldn't form sentences (shame, ecolalia, and fear took over!)

Does it get better? I'm so sad. I'm so tired. I'm so...mad. I know you guys get it. I'm sorry for the horrible rant thread this is, but I express myself better when I write than when I talk--and I needed to get this out.

Thanks for listening...I don't know if this accomplished anything to post this...but somehow...I feel a bit relieved, and even the tiniest bit helps

have you tried epsom salts baths and maybe also keeping epsom cream with you when you are out?

my son even finds epsom footbaths helpful to calm a tic storm

Where do you find the epsom cream Chemar?????