I thank all of you for your advice and support. I am an AP at a high school and this past Thursday I muddled through and fortunately, graduation went fine (for the kids). I on the other hand, woke up with a pounding headache and could not work. These damn things affect every part of my life and I am finding it difficult to control my anger and hostility both at home and at work. If I had to do it all over again, I would not have gone back to work since the headaches have such control of my life. I will persevere but I still
haven’t figured out how.

Thanks to all of you.

I don't know your personality type... I am an A type: I push myself, I like stuff done right and completed, I like everybody happy and I am use to multi-tasking and getting it all done even when I have to do it alone. Even my hobbies were long-term, indepth things like hand quilting, counted cross-stitch and genealogy research. That was before I took a hit on the head last September. The stress of not being able to do that which I did before the tree fell on my head, is my greatest enemy. For when I realize I just spent a day and didn't finish a task that use to take 2-3 hours I am frustrated. Or when I have 3 people asking questions at 1 time and I can't understand anything they are saying I am frustrated. ANd when I am on the phone or trying to figure a little math problem in my hand and can't put 2 thoughts together, I get frustrated. And anytime I get myself in a position where I am frustrated my head starts shooting of shots of pain that stop me in my tracks and leave me in tears. My advice avoid the stressors and trying to do things you use to do or at least give yourself some grace as you do them. Give yourself the extra time, accept that you aren't who you were and be content to do your best and call it done. Good luck, sherry

lennynsherri,

Great comments. I too was a type A personality. As my PCS got worse over the years as I received concussion number 12, 13 and 14, my behavior with others got unmanageable. My ability to back away before I caused trouble or got overwhelmed and snapped at someone was not yet developed.

It took some serious introspection to realize that the problem was me and not them. I needed to set a few limits with others, as in too many talking at once. Or, comments or instructions with too much information.

You are one the right path. Accepting the new you is the start. If the old you returns, you will a lot of wisdom to add to the old you.

My best to you.