I swear when I found this forum a couple days ago i was feeling good and was excited about the acupuncture stopping the pain in my head. I hate to be on here part of bad news whining crap. But I think i was so excited about the pain stopping that I thought I was going to be back to normal. but I still can not talk to people. my family or girl friend that I was engaged to. I had to ask her to not email me any more and to forget about me because I do nothing but make stuff worse. I knew i had to when not to long ago when she was frustraded she said she just dose not have the energy to take care of 2 children. basically me and her daughter. and she was right it did not seem fair.

But I feel right now like a nother last string time. My mom just dropped off i do not know why a ruler or yard stick that was my grampas from his hardware store in halbur iowa. My dad died when I was 14 adn i think my grampa died before that. but i am named after him and this ruler was at least 30 years old that some one had been taking care of. I kow it sounds stupid but in 20 minutes of me having it i forgot about it and closed the garage door on it and it is now gone. i can not tell my family about it. I know it seems like a little thing but it is not to me. And it may have been the least stupid thing I have done since my brain is worthless but it feels like I can not take any more.

I just can not believe that there is not some place where they can just lock me up and nock me out even like a loony bin padded room or some thing until my brain is normal again.

JoeT,

The emotions and other symptoms you are experiencing are very normal. Sorry you are going through this. It helps to understand these symptoms. There is a good reference at www.tbiguide.com. Download the book and print it out. Give a copy to those close to you.

Don't try to read it all at once. When you read it, highlight the topics that relate to you symptoms. Once you understand what symptoms are from the mTBI, it is a bit easier to tolerate them. otherwise, you blame yourself and think you are going crazy.

The flat emotional affect ( not caring about things) is normal. You can make logical choices to care. It at least makes life seem more normal.

It you still have the parts of the ruler, glue it back together. It can be a reminder of recovery. It will be damaged but still be the same ruler.

That is the way you should think of your current condition. You are still the same person just with some broken parts. Slowly work to learn skills to overcome the broken parts. Let us know what 'broken parts' trouble you the most. There is lots of experience and wisdom here.

My best to you.

How was the accupuncture, my moms been nagging for over a year for me to get it but i hate and i mean hate needles so im terrified! did it hurt and how long did the headaches subside?