[SpaceCadet]

I've learned to deal with the symptoms you see in my signature...you know, the classic symptoms of PCS. It's the disturbing, unexplainable symptoms that bother me the most. I think I have more complex symptoms than anyone here on this forum because I've never heard of anyone complain about more than just typical symptoms...I'm going to try and explain.

I have this problem, some days worse than others, where I'll repeat the same same thing over and over in my head. It's like, I'll think of something or say something to someone and then I'll repeat the last thing I said or thought of over and over. Some days I'll have a phrase stuck in my head all day. Sometimes I'll repeat one word over and over to the beat of my heart. Weird? I think so.

Yesterday, started out as a bad day...then I turned it around and I had a few good hours. Then, while playing a simple little game on my smart phone to keep myself busy, I suddenly felt different. I felt very very uncomfortable. My thoughts slowed down, I couldn't think straight...I was just blank. I called the ex-fiance because I needed someone to talk to...but I couldn't talk. I ended the conversation quickly by saying "I'm just gonna go bye goodnight" and hung up the phone. That's all I could get out.

Today...I wake up, eat breakfast and then lay back down. I started having delusional thoughts. For some reason, this thought about putting the waffles in the toaster or I couldn't go to sleep got stuck in my head. Does that even make sense? It doesn't to me lol. Now I just have this uncomfortable feeling, I just don't feel right...it's so hard to explain. I'm just in a completely altered state of mind. Nothing seems right.

I don't think it's anxiety, but it's sure causing it which makes things worse.

I guess some people may go through similar things and just don't post about it because they don't want people to think they are crazy...or they don't know how to explain it? I just wanted to put this out there because these things bother me and maybe someone can put some sense to them.