i am currently on ativan 1 mg twice a day, what i have been doing lately is cutting the 1 mg in half and taking .5 3 times a day because i really want to get off this drug.

I'm going to try and ween myself off of it because 1 mg isnt that high of a dose and the w/d symptoms arent that bad right now. So far today i actually havent taken any ativan, but i feel pretty shaky and really nauseous with a headache.

Things that i've noticed ativan has done to me is slight cognitive impairment, the only difficulties i've ever had were that i would occasionally studder on a word every now and then or when trying to say a word i'd say it wrong or accidentally say a different word. Now that i have been taking ativan for 2 months, it seems to have gotten worse to where i actually have trouble putting words into a sentence sometimes.

This occurred to me yesterday, i had run out of my prescription of ativan and the new prescription had something wrong with it. The pharmacy wouldnt fill it until they got in contact with my dr and he okay'd it to be filled. The problem with that was, my doctor isnt in his clinic on weekends and the clinic is meant for intensive care only on weekends.

I ended up feeling extremely shakey last night and somewhat panicky because i had only taken 1 pill so i went to the ER afraid of w/d symptoms. As i was explaining to the doctor who saw me i explained basically everything thats happened to me as far as, when i was hit and what they diagnosed me with and the date i was diagnosed etc.

I had trouble explaining and felt so panicky that i actually had to take a couple seconds to get my thoughts together to continue explaining. This is the first time i've ever had to take a couple seconds to do that sort of thing. What im wondering is, could it have been possible that the reason i was struggling to do that was because of pure anxiety or symptoms of w/d? Or is Ativan making me worse?

Im going to get off of ativan ASAP and was wondering if anyone else knows of a non benzo that would be really helpful for anxiety, considering the anxiety i'm having is through the roof. Something that wont cause my brain any harm and cognitive problems.