There are many ways of connecting. I am blessed I can still drive and am fairly independent. I chat up any and every person I meet. Most are to busy to want to talk so they are gone in a flash. Others actually want to talk.

I try to return to my work place at lunch once a week. Make contact with the people I work with. I try to review this forum daily. What I have always really liked is face to face. I like to look someone in the eye when we talk and see what thier eye tell me.

I have been on the far spectrum of disconnection and it is a terrible place to be. I struggle to connect empathetically. There is a lasting doubt in my mind as to wether I can trust those who love me most. Faith gets me thru in the hardest moments, trust in the others.

I know I have pushed people away. I have always been the sort of person to have one or two good friends at a time, now they are gone. One just didn't get it, my injury, the other one started her family and was all about that. I don't have a family or kids so I wasn't in to all of that. We just grew apart. Most of my family is from the United State of California, I say that because they don't really know what is going on across the state line. as a result of rmschaver I did send a text to a cousin. she called me and I didn't answer. Don't even mention dating....don't want any part of that business at this time.

I am giving it all to God. I went yesterday to try to sort out my case with the people that are supposed to know their job but yet again I find more morons that don't know what they are talking about. Yesdterday they told me I was going to get a fraction of disability that I had been told previously. I am having chest pains from the stress of all of this. Turns out, I will be ok in the end.

Have a good day,

Hilary

I know this so well I'm current fighting to get more than £16 per week for food. Some cats get more than that ! I'm so sorry for what you're going through.