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I am sorry you feel this way Nick...This is a hard battle and I know from my experience medication is a must with the intense intrusive thoughts....Like Rio said you are needed very much by your children and loved one's...If you cannot get fast help then go to the hospital and get a behavior assessment with honest feelings...You are young and strong and have to listen to the MDs...I hope you reverse these thoughts and seek help seriously.My prayers are with you:hug:

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Originally Posted by SpaceCadet (Post 956157)

brain patch,

Hi there. It sounds like we have a lot of the same struggles. If you ever need someone to talk to feel free to send me a PM.

Everyone else....I seriously considered suicide today. What's the point in living if there is no hope for me ever recovering? I can't really do much for my son in this condition and it's only getting worse. I keep sleeping and sleeping, laying in bed, trying to read a book and avoiding stimulation and stress like the plague but still function worse and worse everyday. What the hell could possibly be happening to me? For Christ sakes, I just want a little bit of thought clarity. I don't ever get a moment of peace. Can't remember the last time I had a "symptom free" day. I don't even know what that is.

Might as well just give up.

I have considered suicide during month 1 of the concussion, I ran to every hospital, every doctor, everything. I felt so sick and no one believed me, feeling all the pressure I remembered I did just want to go, ever since I told my friends this, they come over every day and/or call me to inform them of my healing activities. They were both right though, I am feeling better and would certainly not kill myself right now, in fact because of them, I have the power to keep on going, keep on being who I am.

Wow Nick you have a lot on your plate. I am 50 and do not think I could do what you are trying to do. My struggle with PCS is not nearly as difficult as yours and I am humbled by what you are trying to do. Does your girlfriend understand the affects of PCS and how it relates to you? Is your mother your only familial support? Do you attend any support groups? I know my three year old grand daughter gives me overload and I have to take frequent breaks or get help from my wife and or daughter. It sounds like you may need some daily quiet me time.

You may be what is called a rescuer archetype. Always trying to be there for others and constantly putting yourself last. I know this type as I am one. The problem I faced was when I needed rescuing I did not know how to let anyone else help me. I was still to focused on helping everyone else. Please be careful here as you may very well be sacrificing your own health trying to help everyone else who is special in your life. I get the mental picture of Atlas holding up the world when I think of what your responsibilities are. Please take care of yourself and be sure to let others help you when they can.

I used to be selfless and do more for others than my own self. Until I broke down at the end of 2011 and told everyone that I can no longer help them. It was hard on everyone, including myself, because a lot of people relied on me. My mom needed me to take my sister (who was pregnant at the time) to her doctor appointments, my kids and my girlfriend needed me to run errands for them plus I had my own doctor appointments and errands to run. It became too much and I finally admitted defeat. At first my mom didn't understand but now she does. My girlfriend is BARELY starting to notice I'm not the same person I was and she's somewhat beginning to understand.

You pretty much explained me, how I used to be, when you described how you help others more than yourself.

My mom is the only "familial" support that I have. It's hard for her to help out because she works full time and takes care of my three younger siblings. I have other family out here but I'm not that close to them.

No support groups but I plan on attending one soon. I just have so much trouble organizing my thoughts and expressing how I feel. It would be really hard for me to open up. I'm also overloaded by a room full of people. I will probably try it next month and see what happens.

Thanks to those who gave suggestions on music. After venting on here through this post (and to someone who I will call "mom" through a PM), listening to the suggested music while quietly laying in bed and meditating, I suddenly broke free from my cognitive torture and was able to spend a peaceful hour with my girlfriend and son.

So, thank you all for your support.

Nick

Great to hear you had a little bit of peace! I am trying to really focus on when something is good in the moment. Anything to escape how this feels!
Keep on going!

It is not defeat or weakness to take care of yourself. It will not be a favor to anyone if you wear yourself out trying to take care of them. I know it is very hard to change gears for a while but your own health is important.

Suicidal thoughts

Push through the suicidal thoughts bro. They are lies. Will only make things worse. Go take a nap that is what I do when that hits and I usually wake up in a different frame of mind. :hug: love to you. Hang tough. It will pass.