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Hi everyone. The past 4 weeks or so have been really... weird.

I've been having really strange headaches all day long, mostly located on top of the left side of my head, but radiating down to my left temple and eye. I thought it was a migraine maybe? I am also one of those fun people with fibromyalgia so I'm used to lots of strange pain on many, many levels.

I've been really fatigued as well... as I usually am, so no big deal.

I've also been really depressed. I'm no stranger to what I have called depression in the past, but now I understand that all those feelings, those bad feelings, were not depression, but merely melancholy, sadness, ennui, loneliness, anger, frustration, the blues...

But THIS depression? I think the clinical name for it is anhedonia. It's like being totally dead inside and nothing, nothing at all will make it better. Nothing is fun, or appealing, there is no one I want to talk to, nothing I want to do. It is sheer hell. The only thing I've been able to do over the past week is watch about 75 hours worth of Scandal on Netflix. I also wrote a paper (I'm in grad school) which felt like a minor miracle. Brain's been working so slow!

I have been getting worried about my symptoms and I've been thinking about going to see the doc to get checked out.

Two days ago, I made myself an ice pack to put on my headache spot to soothe the pain, and suddenly, I remembered!

5 weeks ago, my daughter made me an ice pack to put on my head because I had a head injury! But I had no memory of it until 2 days ago??

I was getting something out of my lower cabinet at home and I stood up really fast without realizing the upper cabinet door was open and... CRACK! The blunt edge of the cabinet jammed onto my head like an axe. I saw stars, started to pass out (but didn't) got nauseated, wondered about whether or not I got a concussion...giant goose egg on my head. I finally went to bed worried that I'd die in my sleep like in the movies.

But I totally forgot about it! This whole time! I literally had no memory of what happened until my memory was jogged by the ice pack. So weird.

So, I'm pretty sure I have PCS. It's been 5 weeks, I'm doing ok, I guess. My headaches are getting better. They are still here, but not so constant and not so painful.

At this point, do I still need to get checked out? I am a little freaked out about the amnesia aspect, but I seem to be on the mend.