My issue is this.... I am sick of it all. Personally, at this point I could care less whether it is a coupe contre coupe with white matter disease All I know is that this car accident destroyed my life, and it isn't going to get better anytime soon.

every day is a constant reminder of everything I have lossed. Noone in my life understands what I struggle with every day. I haved by told by all of my doctors that I will not be able to work...mainly due to the severe neck damage. You are going to need social security disability. Well, I have a thick ego, and it irritates me that I will not be able to work.

I am tired of people telling me that I am depressed. That I need to be happy. That I need to push through the pain. Well, what they don't understand is that I do everyday. This is all I have to give. My life is as is was is over.

I'm sorry PCDjourney. I wish you weren't suffering but you are not alone. You can always come in this board to vent. I know it is very hard as I have lost a lot too and you're right. People for the most part don't understand but on here they do. My thoughts are with you.
I don't know much about neck injuries but I'm sorry yours were severe. I wish I had more to offer than my friendship. But it's there if you need it.

Many with life changing health conditions go through stages of grief / loss.. theses may help you understand some of your feelings.
http://familydoctor.org/familydoctor...er-losses.html

http://www.helpguide.org/mental/grief_loss.htm

what is the extent of your neck damage? did you have an mri? were there findings? Please share. headaches I have been told all stem from neck damage. I am suprises docs tell you you will never work again )although that may be true, they usually dont tell someone that without certainty like someone blinded, crippled etc...

I have severe damage to the nerves in my neck, along with the occipital nerve. I have had all of the nerves on my left side of neck burned to stop them from working....it helped some but I still have chronic neck pain. Having Occipital nerve stimulator implanted in October. I have a headache every day, most days I can function over them to an extent. At any given moment I can move my neck in any unknown fashion and I am in severe pain. Neurosurgeon said that the damage done is permanent in inoperable as I wasn't referred out to one for 7 months after MVA. The damage is done to the muscles and tendons. This is crippling for me, one minute I could have bearable pain, and moving my neck to look at someone can set off a world of pain.

sorry to hear this - have you applied for SSDI yet? you should now if you havent as the approval can take some time and if you are unable to get back to work at least you will have medicare formedical and some money to live on

Get your SSDI application started right away. As you delay, your wage base becomes diluted by the non-wage period or lower wage period. This effects your benefits amount for the rest of your life. I waited too long and my benefit is hundreds of dollars less that it would have been if I had started my application sooner.

You can always stop the SSDI payments. In fact, they often requalify you some years later.