I am sorry you are so frustrated. I felt exactly the same way last summer. I was a year and a half into my recovery and progress was minimal.

I used to be very fit and strong - now I was so out of shape that just getting up the stairs was a monumental effort. My weight had shot up to almost 200 lbs. I looked as terrible as I felt.

Over the last year I have been gently pushing my physical limits, I've lost weight, I have learned to walk that fine line between pushing my boundaries and doing too much.

Yeah, all the cognitive issues are still there, the headaches are still there, the fatigue can be a real downer. But I feel good about my future now, I feel like I have a little bit more control of my life.

I too used to be a funny funny person. for the last 2 years every time I tried to tell a joke people would look at me with pity or worse - they would get teary eyed. This summer my brain remembered how to be funny again. Now when people cry its because they are laughing so hard at my jokes.

So please, hang in there - find a way to feel good about yourself again. I am rooting for you.

Jan