I'm sorry to vent on here but I am feeling helpless and hopeless. Here's my background, 10 years ago I was hit in the head with a basketball while teaching. I suffered pcs without knowing that it was actually pcs (never diagnosed).

A NUCCA chiropractor helped me relieve my symptoms and the only lingering symptom I had was anxiety. For almost 9 years I lived happily. Had 3 children. Then after my last child just in April I lost my alignment (I have lost it previously but can hold my alignment for 2-4 years at a time).

So I was out of alignment in a "new" pattern which required me to be adjusted on the side of my injury. I didn't feel right after and thought I just didn't "hold" and had to be readjusted. So I got adjusted again a week later and this time my old injury flared up and I felt concussed. Then I got re xrayed and I was out of alignment all the way on the other side! So what started out at 17 degrees out to the left ended up being 20 degrees out to the right. My neck spontaneously flip flopped. During my healing years prior it did this too, adjusted on the injured side only to have all my old symptoms flare up again. It took me 6 months to recover last time (in 2006) and then I held my alignment for 4 years (and even had a baby and continued to hold).

Neuro this time diagnosed me with pcs and migranous symptoms.

So here I am again and my symptoms seem to change daily. I never know what to expect. I get stroke like symptoms at times, other times I feel like passing out or that death is at my door. The entire body aches I get are outrageous. Just in the last 3 days I seem to be getting sensory overload. I'll be active in the morning (just by getting up, getting kids dressed and fed) and then laundry and by noon I'll get a headache and can't think - even my thoughts are jumbled. Its like my brain is shutting down.

I am staying at my moms to try and rest because my kids are so stimulating. I'm not driving or working and too sick to even go into a store.

I'm feeling scared that this will never end (I'm in alignment and still symptomatic). I feel sad for my kids and I miss them terribly. I feel like a burden to my husband as he has had to take time off work.

I'm scared that this came back after being adjusted and scared this will lurk around the corner for the rest of my life. I'm also scared of dementia.

I just tried amitriptyline with bad side effects but was at my sickest yesterday so am going to try 2.5mg. I am so sensitive to everything especially mediscared.

Feeling scared. Cried all day.