[MP8621]

Hello,

There are some days when I wonder if I am still suffering from a concussion, or PCS.

I was in a car accident in August, nearly 6 months ago. I rear ended someone and while I don't remember hitting my head, I definitely hit hard enough to jolt myself creating a concussion.
I blacked out and only remember hearing the impact..(which, when I see or hear a car crash in movie or on tv, I now jump at. It scares me!)

The first two weeks were the worst and I was so uncertain of myself that I withdrew for the first 5 weeks after. I considered myself lucky that nothing worse had happened to me or the other person, or anyone else but my depression, anxiety, and overall views on things changed greatly immediately after.

I just was not the same person at all.

At first I felt so guilt ridden immediately after the accident happened.. I waited a few days before I even got checked out because I was in shock/scared/and of course concussed.

I slowly, I think, eased back into my lifestyle, which is not always perfect.
As time went by I began to think I was OK and could go out and have drinks.. or hit the gym.. or do anything the same.. or just anything like I had been able to do before the concussion.

I feel like there are times when the concussion comes back. Never like the first few weeks (good grief!) but just a mental fog, lack of wanting to do anything. As I described to my DR, I felt/feel stoned and "dumbed" down. I had a new sense of why athletes who suffer these types of injury can end up the way some of them do!
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I can tell I am not the same. Things that I use to be so, I dunno, OCD about I hardly consider.. I forget things I never use to forget such as a scheduled appointment or something. Again this is very uncharacteristically of me!

I am wondering if this is a bit psychosomatic? Is it possible I am still suffering? Should I never touch alcohol again? Any advice would be much appreciated.

regards,

Mike