It's been a while since I've posted here, mostly because I realized that frequenting neurotalk was only exacerbating my anxiety. I returned to school in February (grad student) and have been TAing a class and getting back into research this semester. Things have been sort of steadily getting slightly better. I certainly didn't get a lot worse from the semester work, but still am not feeling a whole lot better. My main issues are still constant headaches and visual info processing deficits that make reading somewhat difficult.

I've been getting neurofeedback for a couple months now, and the practitioner tried something slightly different last week that I actually think helped (something that doesn't often happen after the bajillion things I've tried), as I'd been feeling better that I have in quite a while last week. I handled a day long symposium on Friday well, which I took as a good sign.

Then today I hit my head on a heavy water balloon that was hanging from a string (helping set up for a party). My head was moving pretty fast as I was stepping up onto a porch. I feel silly thinking this could've done something as it was a water balloon, but it was pretty heavy and my head hit it fairly hard. I've had a worse headache there since, and have generally felt more fatigued than usual (and more anxious, but I'm not panicking or anything).

I just get extremely discouraged after these head bumps, as in the past 15 months all my setbacks seem to be caused by these dumb bumps or falls, and it generally takes me a while to get back. It seems like every time I get a good groove going and see a light at the end of the tunnel some dumb thing happens and I feel worse. I'm worried because this one feels a bit worse than the dumb bumps I've had the past few months. It was right on the middle-top of my head, where I had a head about a year ago on a ceiling that definitely did something as I haven't felt as good as I felt before that hit since then.

I guess I don't really know why I'm posting, just looking for some support/encouragement (or talking sense into me that a freaking water balloon can't cause a setback).