Hi Seth,
I am sorry to hear you may be losing your job. That is devastating on so many levels. I lost my job also.

Are you losing it because of your health or other reasons?
If health, look into company disabilities policies and social security disability insurance. The sooner the better because sometimes the processing moves frustrating slow.

How wonderful you have a wife and lovely daughters to live for.
I hope things go your way, Seth.
Diandra

QtipsQ,


I know I've felt like ending it a few times. Even prior to the concussion, I faced loneliness and misunderstanding of myself, and wanted to end it for years. Since the concussion, everything got magnified. I am now dealing daily with fatigue, confusion, and the inability to communicate with people.

Now I don't know how much pain you are in and of course can't tell you I have dealt with anything similar. But, in my darkest of times I have learned to flip a * finger to * circumstance and say I am going to make it through this moment till I find another moment of hope because I am a proud human being. Just seek those moments of hope that will get you by on day to day basis.

But, of course for a longer term you need a strategy to cope with this situation. I believe the person who suggested taking a Math class is onto something. I have found great solace in playing ping pong. It's a sport and skill that I can improve and doesn't use my hard mental skills that are currently lacking.

Ping pong may not be the answer for you. But, search for a hobby or daily activity that you can enjoy. I came onto ping pong only after many failed attempts to find something - attempting to start a movie critique blog (luckily don't suffer from light and sound sensitivity so wasn't a problem), trying to play the guitar, trying to play video games, trying to walk outside for hours. None of these other options gave my heart peace, but ping pong puts me at ease. And I think there might be a daily activity you could seek out that could help you.

Look, I don't know how helpful any of this is. But, just hang in there and fight because even that single shred of hope and clarity from this concussion nonsense is going to be worth it.

Feel free to message me if you ever need to chat. Best of luck and hang in there!

I kind of wrote that at a low moment last night. Yes, I'm not sure I can do my job anymore because of my condition. I gives me a huge amount of worry and stress and I don't feel like I can recover fully staying in it. I'm going to talk with HR soon.