Words of wisdom:

Take it one day at a time.

There is great value in the things you will learn only available during hardship. Seeing your challenges as opportunities for growth, can pacify the "why me?" thoughts? This means that time you feel that you "could or should be" doing other things is now available for that realm of contemplation, introspection, and such.

I have heard spiritual philosophies stating that physical ailments are catalysts for spiritual growth and that the physical ailment is brought about b/c that is the only way that one will search for greater understanding. From my own experiences, I will confirm that line of thought.

And if you are needing help or advice, feel free to reach out on here. There are many here to help.

Well I had the call with the person this evening. They were in your camp with a lot of thoughts. They thought the 20 minutes I was doing was way too much and said the most they'd ever suggest for anyone would be like 7 minutes and that's if their brain was in pretty good shape. For me they were thinking anywhere from like 30 seconds to 2 minutes and said that even if indirect light felt too stimulating that it's even effective if you close your eyes while wearing the filters as your brain will still receive what it needs to.

I want to have them help me as a guide but they have a program and it's super expensive. I've taken time off and things haven't calmed down for me so I feel like syntonics pushed me in to this state and syntonics is the only thing that can pull me out. Think I'll probably just take the plunge and have this person work with me because I don't know what I'm doing when it comes to filters or what to expect.

Just wanted to update you I'm supposed to be receiving my new syntonics filters from this group sometime today. I'll likely be starting getting back to things today or tomorrow so wish me luck.

Things have still unfortunately not calmed down for me by taking a break from syntonics so it feels like this intense light sensitivity and pain and no watching tv is here to stay unless I try something. Hopefully a week or two with the filters with indirect light and short time periods will slowly allow things to settle down and allow me to function better without my visual system making me feel so horrible.

I'll let you know what filters they're recommending initially just for your reference and in case anyone else stumbles along this thread down the road and hopefully sees my journey that will end in a success story.

So I went ahead and did my first session. The first filter they recommended was Neurasthenia, which is a light purple and they suggested that for 2 minutes. Then Mu-Upsilon for 30 seconds.

I decided to sit in a dark room with an incandescent bulb but I put it on the floor below the height of my desk so that it would light up the room but I couldn't see the bulb directly. I had all other lights off and the door closed.

I'm honestly not sure it went all that well. I still got a little bit of the forehead pressure that I had experienced before but it was at least less severe this time. My anxiety levels are also up a little afterwards but I guess maybe that was to be expected since I was getting back on the horse for the first time in a while and wasn't sure what was going to happen.

Anyway, did you ever experience any kind of pressure on your forehead during syntonics? That happened to me somewhat intensely with my prior long sessions and was a little mild with this one but was honestly hoping I just wouldn't feel anything this go around.

Well my friend I'm sorry to report that overnight after my first session things are now worse. Eyes are even more sensitive, my head feels tight, have some nausea, and just overall very overstimulated.

I think you may have said at one point that it happened to you a few times along the way so hopefully this is just a bump in the road.

Regardless I guess 2.5 minutes was still way too much for me. I've read about people doing it with their eyes closed and still getting the effect of the filter so that may be what I try next time but I'm going to just take a few days off after that failed session.

Thanks for any thoughts you may have at this point.

One day at a time.

If the treatment is worse off than without it, then stop.

My grandpa had surgery and post surgery he had problems with his arm. He told the doctor, "My arm hurts when I do this," as he lifted his arm." The doctor said, "Then don't do that."

Sometimes you gotta laugh. Comedy has done me well over the years.

I've done maybe 7 sessions since that post and reaction. We made the adjustment to just do 30 seconds per filter and to do them with my eyes closed. Things have been mostly uneventful since then though after doing it this morning it may be a little bit of an adverse effect so will have to monitor.

Symptoms have been somewhat improved over last few days with the light but still a ways to go on it. I'm still not even close to being able to watch TV with the motion on the screens now bothering me. Let me know if you have any tips on how to maybe make that work or if it's just a matter of having to let things calm down over time.

The suggestions I have are:

Continued discipline and patience.

Fish oil and vitamin A - carrots, pumpkin puree (pie filler), sweet potatoes - these I feel do help. It could be a placebo, but regardless, the body needs sufficient nutrients.

As far as the motion on screens, I used to have real bad problems with it too. It's rarely an issue. If you are on a computer, you can close your eyes as you scrolll.