Hi Guys,

I've been "lurking" for about 4 months now, but now I'm in a bad situation and need help. I trust the expertise of the people here more than any doctor I've been to. I live in WA state, which imo, has the worst medical system of anywhere in the country. To give a few examples, I've been told to my face by a neurology specialist (harborview) that xanax "has no side effects" and no withdrawl effects(!). I filed a complaint against him and the staff told me that no one reads the complaints. When I went to (highline) for my first concussion after I was involved in an accident, I was told by the ER doctor that I wasn't actually injured, that I was just a drug addict (I absolutely am not) because I was extremely pale and shaking. They discharged me with no paperwork and my husband found me face down in the parking lot an hour later. I am not even kidding, and I have dozens of similar stories.

Since my first accident I've had 3 more concussions over the last 5 months, ranging from things like hitting my head (pretty hard) on a desk when I was picking something up, another time on a door, and once when the shocks went out in the car for half an hour (it was extremely bumping/jolting in a 1.5 ton truck). I have pretty bad PCS and I can throw up if I move my head a little too fast. I have a lot of the same problems that mark in idaho has actually, that's what started me reading this forum. The main symptoms I have are cognitive problems, I still can't work, my memory is totally shot, and a lot of dizziness and nausea. After my second concussion I became highly intolerant to medications. I was taking meclizine for a while, but now taking it makes me really sick.

So last month I took a trip to AZ to visit my family. The day I got here, that's the day I got my fourth concussion. That night I was almost nonverbal. I was muttering jibberish for hours and throwing up. I don't have a lot of memory of that night really. It took me 2 days before I could get out of bed and be on my feet again. My mom drove me to a hotel and I've been stuck there almost 3 weeks now, mostly relying on people to bring me food. My husband came and stayed with me for a while and bought groceries. When I'm in a car for even a few minutes I'll start getting dizzy and nauseous so I haven't been able to travel. I've been so scared of getting a fifth concussion that I haven't left the room.

I was planning on flying back to seattle this saturday, thinking I should be recovered enough by then, but just yesterday around noon, I twisted my head a little too fast, a few times actually. Ever since then all my symptoms have come back with a vengence, the dizziness, the nausea. I only actually threw up once though. Even writing this post is making me physically sick, but I have to get help somehow. But now I'm running out of money and I'm running out of my medications. I only have enough of my medication to last me until maybe tuesday if I hold out.

I'm scared to death, but I don't know what to do. Should I take the risk and fly (about 3 1/2 hours)? I'm scared about the turbulence, landing, and takeoff most of all. If I get another concussion mid flight, with no way to control or stop the aircraft shaking, I don't even know what I'm going to do. Does anyone have any advice? A lot of the people here have been dealing with similar things to me and I trust your guys input more than anyone. Thanks in advance, sorry for the long post and all that. Should I take the risk and fly? Will it give me another concussion? Is there anything I can do?