Mark,

I do see what you're trying to say. I think I know where this all stems from and it's really difficult to let go of it - I might have mentioned my mom's concussion history, but I'm not sure if I ever mentioned her stroke history. She's had two. Now, I know strokes and head impacts are different, but they've all left her impaired. After the car accident I was in senior year of high school, I was sitting in my garage and my mom came in and said "I don't want you to end up like me." That comment scared the **** out of me and got internalized as a massive, massive fear. I think, after that, I became extremely over-protective of my head.

But, your right Mark - it's an anxiety I need to work through and I, unfortunately, have no idea how I'm going to work through it. It's one I've tried to resolve and actively do try to resolve. But, I imagine, given how deep that fear went, it's going to take a lot of time.

Your thoughtful comments and explanations are appreciated as always though - it's nice to let all of this out and have it met with such kind, smart responses. Thank you for being clear about the strength of impact required to cause a concussion and making me more aware of how.. anxiety driven my interpretation/experience of these bumps is.

I'll continue to work on trust and acceptance that symptoms from these head-bumps are more a product of my imagination than anything else.

Sincerely,
Squash