thankyou mark. im at work now.....lets see how this goes today....
oh, by the way....ive been singing in my head the same song..by Phil Collins ...something like "youre throwing it all away" - "watch the world go round and round". . I noticed that yesterday when i was picking up limbs...i know this is part of high anxiety....i had this 5 years ago too...but it was a different song then...
i will buy a bp med machine!
must dash...
God Bless you

I called it Juke boxing when I would get a song stuck but could change the song. I could not stop a song from playing so I would just change it. Amazing Grace is my rescue song. I've heard it sung so beautifully by Celtic Woman and other good singers that I can let it loop as if they are singing it.

Hope you have a good day.

oh wow yes i recently heard that Celtic Woman version on youtube. It is beautiful. I actually heard it on a day I had just started 5mg of cital...about 3 hours after taking it i noticed d I felt wonderfully calm, normal, clear headed and confident (placebo??). i took my dog for a walk around the golf course and listened to amazing grace and i cried because it was so beautiful and i was so happy to feel normal. that lasted through the night but came back fully anxious and foggy headed the next day...such a let down and hard to understand.

so guess what....yesterday...even thou i anticipated my usual "amped up on edge" condition to be present at work...it actually only lasted for a few hours in the am and the rest of the day and night i felt 90 percent improved. i was so happy and hopeful that i can beat this. i came back to work positive this morning only to have horrible unease and then the weird head fullness/surreal again the whole day and even now as im about to leave. i remember you saying not to compare days, there will be ups and downs. its just bloody frustrating and distressing.

anyways.......
have you noticed how this TBI page always has the most viewers at any given time. bless

Good to hear you had a better day.

As you have the up and down days, eventually, you will start to have more up than down days or downs that are not as deep. Don't try to keep track. Let them sneak up on you so you finally realize, I had two good days in a row. or, I just did xyz for the first time in months.

Then, after you have been doing great for a while, be ready for the "Oh, this is going to be one of those days." They will also sneak up and slap you. How you respond will impact how quickly you get past them.

Hi mark. Well here I am day 47 on my Celexa. Just bumped to 15mg today for a 10 day trial then up to 20mg where I hope to get the relief from the residual anxiety I am left with.
All that crazy buzzing and electrical waves have gone. I'm left with what I would call a general anxious state of being, feeling off, sometimes disconnected, sometimes surreal, having globus (lump in throat) , hyper salivation and having an overwhelming heavy sigh/anxious feeling response to things I think about. <~~~~ I can't explain that last bit. I am sleeping well. My mood and spirit seem well improved with the Celexa. I'm seldom sobbing and now only cry when I'm fed up with the anxiety and let it get me down. I'm almost 5 months since my injury. I can't believe it's been that long . I'm still hearing the juke box but it's diff songs all the time. :-)
So anyway.... I just had all my hormonal labs drawn and am eager to see what we are working with. I did all the ones you recommended. I'll keep you posted!
Oh and to boot I just injured my foot and bought myself 2 weeks off work! I'm on crutches!! 3 serious injuries in a year. lord have mercy. Hehe
Hope this finds you well

Wow, this story sounds close to mine.
I took Zoloft for a bit, and seemed to help. Unfortunately for me a quit cold turkey, and boy was that a mistake.
I have found staying close to those who understand, and talking in a forum such as this (which really got me through a lot).
I'm still fighting the disconnect , but just try and not get worked up over it (I stop comparing to when I was pre pcs).

Like Mark says, get proper sleep!!!!


Cheers.

Hi cart..... Is your disconnect all the time? I do have moments of normalcy ... When in a swimming pool or riding my horse.... Or busy painting pallets etc
I'm still trying to determine if this is just residual anxiety (I have suffered severely with it espec 5 yrs ago .... 6 weeks of citalopram fixed that) .... It's just not the same this time.
It's the bloody fear of the unknown..... How badly did we slam our heads???
I can say I am much improved over the last month.
Oh I pray for you and me and anyone that has this that it will finally resolve .... The people around us have no idea....as we look normal. It's been a living nightmare to be honest.
I especially get the surreal when I'm driving.... Espec long distance driving
I just did an anxious heavy sigh. Hate it.
All the best

My disconnect is almost there all the time. I do get the odd time if feeling "normal".
I have spoken to a lot of friends who went through the same type feeling, and on the average , it has taken them min 2 years for the disconnect feeling to go away.

So there's hope then. Lol. I'm going to truck on with the citalopram and perhaps change to escitalopram if needed or whatever. at least it sounds like you don't have any anxiety anymore. I'd give my right arm to be in that position again. So perhaps we are talking about two different things... As far as our disconnect..... I'd like to think mine is anxiety related. I don't know. Heck.

If I take a baby Xanax the surreal goes away which makes me think it is just a hyper stimulated central nervous system state I'm in. However I refrain from taking them and just try to get on with it and "que sera sera". Im trying to take it day by day....Patience certainly isn't my virtue though. I just want my life back as I knew it

Take care

Ohh, I still get anxiety daily lol.

I'm just trying to work around being on anything (personal opinion).

I have a neck issue which I'm getting operated on in a month, so I hope the helps with the anxiety/disconnect .