Thanks for the response man!!

Are you on the side of permanent damage/problems? If so I am sorry to hear that. Believe me, I'm not taking any of this lightly. I'm constantly battling internally about whether I should quit BJJ or continue.

I understand about risking a possible long term/permanent injury, but I have to ask myself. If I am so worried about that, then I shouldn't ride a motorcycle ever again, or I shouldn't snowboard, or should drive a car, or do many other things that COULD cause an injury right?

I think that is the biggest thing I am struggling with internally. If I give up BJJ to protect my brain, then riding a motorcycle seems hypocritical because if I come off that I am probably going to be FAR worse off. Or doing snowboarding where you fall on your ***, tumble, land funny etc.

I just feel like it is a "what if" situation with everything and I wanted to try and live my life sensibly but not just avoiding things all the time.