I think it's safe to say that this condition has not heightened my appreciation for the holiday season. I feel poor enough on a day to day basis as is - I could really do without a bunch of stress and extended family members making matters even less tolerable.

I guess I'm just having one of those days though, I just want to be left alone until I can fall asleep tonight... not exactly the best spot to be in on Thanksgiving, eh?

Hi didn't you even enjoy the food???????? It gets a bit sad when I think that the favourite thing in life is sleep but I also love food!
Lucy

Hey PCS McGee,
I hope you get thorough the holidays!! The good thing is that you are conscious of these feelings, however painful they are. Do not beat yourself up that you are feeling this way, just do not let them invade your brain, like an uninvited guest. Good days and bad days are normal, stay positive and focused in your recovery. Hey just look at them as really difficult workouts. Happy Post Thanksgiving!
Nancy

I know what you mean. I hosted Thanksgiving dinner yesterday for 9 people. One of which is someone that causes me a lot of anxiety. I'm already anxious, so this was the last thing I needed. I decided to take my Klonipin in the morning instead of evening to help me get through it.

Turns out that she wasn't as bad as she's been in the past- so I put myself through a lot of stress and anxiety for nothing.

I posted video's of me getting ready and having a bit of a panic attack (I do video blogging from time to time to go on my blog because my readers like to see the 'real' me). Feel free to watch if you'd like. At least you'll see a face to my name.

Funny thing did happen though. I set the table on Wednesday, and when I went to put some of the condiments out on Thursday, I noticed that I'd put two spoons (instead of a spoon and knife) in one setting and didn't put any silver wear at all in one place.

That's one of the things that's driving me really crazy. All the weird things I'm doing- like I'm on autopilot and the autopilot isn't driving me to the right place.

I hope you ALL had a happy Thanksgiving, in spite of it all.

To PCS Mc Gee

Hope you had a good Thanks Giving.

Are you making any progress on your reseach in Nuerofeedback?

Take Care Jeffn

I haven't done any more research on Neurofeedback recently... I was working with a healer guy and was reaping really good benefits, but then a random mishap smacked a rolled up carpet onto my head.

Understandably, I'm not a happy camper - God's seriously on my **** list right now.