[Lucy]

Well after all this time ( and it is exactly 6 and half years today) I have lost my self control and am what you might call tearful - like constantly. I seem to be kind of ok until I see somebody I know - managed to get the groceries without crying, even had a pedicure without crying. Groan!!!!!!

The trigger was or maybe the last straw was - a client fired me!! (And it was not beause of my work - it was my employers charge out rate) So I burst into tears (not in front of him as it happenned on the telephone - thank goodness) - ugh - no self control - I have lost that totally - and it is horrible - went home cried more - and more and here it is 4 days later. Never before in my life has this been - compared to what I was like just after Christmas this is 100 times worse.

The doctor is going to change my pills when I go back to see him this afternoon. It is weird as I can still see things that are funny and say funny things.

So now there is discussion about me not working any more - my boss has said that I can have a years holiday if I want - underneath it all I know that it will not fix me.

Is there anybody else that has been like this?

Lynlee