[Burntmarshmallow]

okay held the complaining in but some has to slip out... just a little.
First went to have my yr. check up my girls too . so first thing in morn on school day. I go first in back strip sit there with that goffy butt ugly gown, for like 20 mins. aid girl comes in says we cant see the girls today a yr has not gone by and so must wait another 3 months. so fine she leaves I sit for another 10 mins.. she comes back and cant see me either . so I dress leave.
okay here is the thing it is cold out and my right side did a iceburg frezze up.
I didnt know till I walked into middle school office and my face was stuck . the lady looks at me before I could say anything she tells me to put my claws back in we dont go there. I was so ticked off she said that. and so tied of trying to explaine . my face has not done iceburg freeze up so much as the last few months. maybe this is going to be the normal thing now?? I wonder since this is a only gets worse but never better illness how quick is the decline? of corse I know thats a foolish question as everyone is diffrent .
More tests for hub too . at least Sat the sleep thing is on and that is a plus as I wont be having to wake him every night all night when he stops breathing in sleep. if someone you know snores make sure it isnt something more!!!....
okay could go on but steaming about my iceburge freeze ups and tests tests for hub... is enough to lift the load a bit.I just wanted my family all ready to travel this June July ... ... I want my face to work ... I dont want this iceburge freeze up to be the thing now but if it is ... I better smile maybe it will freeze in that postion . ha ha haaaaa

[Burntmarshmallow]

why cant a face get stuck in that position. I am about to lose job yipee and probly no travels either. dose any one here have their face not work like its , dead. of corse cold numb heavy with the eletrical knife stabing and sawing away but it use to move at least somewhat . oh yeah the face freak out in the display window again, .
see you all around
Peace
BURNTMARSHMALLOW

[Chemar]

BMW....just want to give you a

[Burntmarshmallow]

yup yesterday last day ..lost job... hard to do phones and hard to smile when one is needed. they said they will try to move me to another position but not until they find an opening. I dont know why I am so steamed and stressed my oldest still will be doing her tour / shows across the u.s.
I think it is hub that has got the string pulling tight and stressing me. I hope that all will change after saturday night at the sleep clinic.I pray it is just that he needs a mask thingy for night and it is not anything worse where he needs surgery on throat or anything. my sisters oldest girl just got out of hosp. she had a heart attack she is only 27 . she is back home with baby and doing well.
chemar I am going to strip down out of the winter cloths and get some SUNSHINE today... doc says that will do me good. and too I can start writing again with not working all day... it just stinks a bit even tho I get steamed at things I am glad I didnt tick anyone off here. Thanks for the hug and for steping back and letting me vent this palce is worth all the . if I could smile Id have a huge grin on right now
Peace
Burntmarshmallow.. Tina

[Burntmarshmallow]

hey guess what... work called me this morning saying they want me to come in they have a spot for me ... no phone work or any of that smile needed stuff. yipppeeee. I guess I will be checking the rooms behind the house keepers still too . need to go it is no vacancy there till bike week is done...
driving will be a circus , LOUD , humorus and showy to say the least.
Peace
Burntmarshmallow...Tina

[Curious]

that is great news bmw!

[watsonsh]

Yeah Burnt - great news. Happy to hear it.

[Jebbyfur]

good for you I know you really like getting out of the house. . Have a great day. Jen

[Burntmarshmallow]

thanks ya' alll. I did have to tell about my t.n. and my stim implant . its the only thing I dont like to do since most of the time no one can tell but I guess that has changed enough to matter now .
ha work or getting out is tops since I couldnt do it for so long or ,for any amount of time.
now just have to finish up getting hub to sleep place as they cancled cause of not hearing from insurance.. but finaly did 2 days ago.. so thats almost done too. .
thanks.
Peace
Bmw.. Burntmarshmallow ...Tina