Don't give up. You must see your doctor and have this investigated. Seek a primary care physician, and keep a journal of your pain. Your PCP will send you to a neruologist in my opinion. There is help for this, but you must seek it out. I know about that fear of pain too. Please know there is all kinds of help, for NP, or for whatever reason your jaw and face is doing this. Go find out what is wrong so that it can be treated. You will be able to go on in your life with the proper diaganosis, and treatment. Lots of medications are available. A pain specialist may be needed as well. Please keep us informed and come back here for support. there are many here who are pain patients and can help you through this process. There is hope and help, make the appt. as soon as you can. I do wish you all the best as you go forward to find a solution. Hang in there....ginnie