Good Morning Ladies,

I sure hope you are doing fine this morning. I'm still under the weather somewhat. Each day I hope I'll see an improvement. I'm going to give in and go to the Dr. if things don't change soon. I can barely do anything now. I am going to ice down my back today for I have things I must do.

Are any of you losing more weight? I just weighed and have lost a couple more pounds. I am not eating any different and I am less active than usuall. That does cheer me up a bit.

When Bizi mentioned the castor oil yesterday, I too, thought she ment to drink it. I might try it. I couldn't hurt me. I do remember the drink they used to give children. It was called Castoria.I don't know that I needed it, but I was one that had to take it, so my parents thought,

I am going house hunting this afternoon again. If I can't find a place I like I may have to buy ground and put a home on it. That's about the last thing I want to do, knowing I would have to hire that done too. I found some ground just outside of town if I decide to go that way. I am meeting with a realitor this afternoon and will see what he says. He sure wants my house if I
can't sell it.

Well gal's, may you get out today and exercise if possible.I have got to if at all possible. Take to you later.
BC

I don't know why I thought you had surgery this morning.... I really must get back on my Wellbutrin or something....my brain is just on vacation something awful!! Anyway I am sorry to hear you are feeling so under the weather. Do at least call the dr. and see if he thinks this is a normal thing. OOPS!! Did I say normal????

Billie help me to understand why it is we have to have this every day pain. Is God whoopin us or what? Sometimes I get so tired. I just wonder why he put me here if this is how things are. I know, I know! I shouldn't question it! Sometimes I just get so down and tired of it all. When I think something is getting better something else pops up. Maybe I have just lost faith in everything. But I will conquer!! Just a slump I guess.

I have to ask. How many of us have that awful sag on the underside of our arms? I hate that! I have tried light weights, exercise and nothing draws it up. I could do with some of that surgery they do now to tighten it all back up. I look like an understuffed elephant in places. Any suggestions?

I have been on a vienna weiny kick....do you know how fattening those are?? I love them though. I get in these depressed moods and I sit home, because I can't afford to go anywhere anymore, and I eat! So me, my weinies, and Club snack sticks, the whole wheat ones, have a party!

For those of you that don't know me I live with a bunch of nimwits! Jamie and I have been together for 7 years. He is an alcoholic. Well June a year ago his 2 kids came to live with us because the state took the kids from their over drug addicted mother. They were 13 and 9 at the time. Now 11 and Chris was 15 yesterday. They had a wealth of problems. Mostly behavioral. They are both ADHD diagnosed. Now they are going to do a psych evaluation on them to see if they are bipolar or anything else since their mom is bipolar. My 3 kids are grown and have given me 9 Grandbabies. Yes, Jamie is younger than me. ( I will never get another younger one either!) Needless to say I hate it here. My home is now a constant battle field! Then my son and his fiance came to stay when he got out of jail to get on their feet. Well I think he is getting too comfortable. I kicked him out once but he never left and he has no other place to go yet so what do ya do? He did cool his jets though and has a good job now so he will be out before long. I just want my sanity back!! I just don't know what to do short of living with someone and I don't want to do that. All I have is my SSDI and its not near enough to survive on. My truck payment eats that up. So here I sit!! Hating every day! So now you know the rest of the story....

I'm sorry. I just need to get it off my chest I guess. I already don't feel worth a crap every day and all this just makes me nuts!! If the mud would ever dry up out here, which it is almost where I can walk down my driveway now, I can go walking and relieve some of this. My Dr. said I really need to consider some life changes. Sure....he can afford that but everyone can't! I am just on my pity pot today I guess so I will shut up!

I hope everyone else is having a better day than we are Billie. So far it doesn't sound good huh? I hope that everyone rested well lastnight and has a bright sunny day!

Sher

{{{{{{{{{{GREAT BIG SOFT HUGS SHERLOC}}}}}}}}}}}}

I understand your wanting to eat from all the pain, frustration and depression. When we can't do anything else FOOD is always a quick pick me up! I do the same thing....reach for food. Doesn't help the situation or pain though, and I know that...so do you.....we just have a habit that is sooooooo hard to break and with your family situation it is extra hard. Keep on coming here daily and share the fun, the companship of fellow suffers that understand the eating, and vent when you need to. You will be loved here and hugged a whole lot, if ya like hugs!

I have found what sits on my mind and festers, often shows up physically on my belly!

Sit down Sherloc, put your feet up, and enjoy a good cup of coffee I sent you a nice hot cup! Gaye

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Good morning everyone, Well it seems that we all need to try to cheer ourselves up. Life is hard enough without adding this constant pain to sometimes just put you over the edge. I tried to describe to hubby what it feels like to be aching every single day. I told him to imagine that he had someone tapping on his forehead, it is always there. Sometimes it gets really soft, other times it feels like a hot poker. So I told him when there are days that I need to go hide out, that is a hot poker day. He tried to understand as best that he can but I know it is so frustrating to him to not have the same wife as I was 4 years ago. It was 4 years ago today that a truck decided to drive to fast on the freeway and slam into us. I sometimes wonder if he realizes the damage he caused and that my family is still affected 4 years later. When I see someone driving recklessly I just want to grab them and show them my scars and tell them that their behavior impacts so many other people. Wow, I didn't know I was going in this direction this morning but I am going to leave it here. Sometimes I write a post and then delete it because it is just rambling thoughts from my head and I worry that I may be too negative or not make sense.

Sher, I am so sorry that you are stuck in a house like that. It really is sad that they cannot see what it does to you. You have taken on a very difficult job by helping to raise 2 step kids. It is hard enough to handle a blended family, then you add adhd and possible bi-polar to it and it may sometimes seem that it is impossible. Plus adding to the fact that they are at the age where life is pretty hard for them anyway. Is there anyway you could go just to get away for a little while? Hubby put up a gazebo in the backyard for me, it is my rest spot. I can go out there and just hide out when life gets too hard. Oh and I love vienna sausages. I also like spam sandwiches. Growing up money was tight but those were actually a treat. THere were 6 of us growing up and mom knew how to stretch a budget. My kids are so spoiled and I am trying to get them to see how lucky they are. It is a very materialistic world now and I find it difficult to keep them grounded. I wish there was more I could do than offer you moral support though. Just know that my shoulder is always there for you to lean on.

So today I am going to eat healthy, go for a walk, and drink lots of water!!! I have a appt with chiro today and my back always feels good after a stretching. So I am going to get out and sieze the day...Sue

Dear Sher,
WOW!
you have so much on your plate...
You must be a very strong woman...I could not handle all of the stress that you deal with on a daily if not hourly basis.
I think your doctor is right about a chnage...perhaps a counselor could help you figure out what that might be for you.
I wish you some peace of mine for today.....
Perhaps you could find a piece of grass and take a 12" hike....
(((HUGS)))
bizi

Good morning Billie, I had a post to you along with the post to Sherloc and it disappeared?? Also made Sherloc's HUG too little...I meant for it to be BIG!
Well, here goes again...hope you have sucess in finding your house today.I am sure it will all come together real soon...a nice house for you and a wonderful fenced yard for Bear.
I sent you an e-mail last night.

{{{{{{HUGS EVERYBODY ELSE}}}}}} and I hope we all make it through the day with our "D'S" Gaye

PS "D" means diet. I prefer the word "plan" to the D word! Diet is a four letter word and the first 3 letters spell...DIE! LOL

Sher sweetie, check your email!
Hugs,
LS

Hi bizi, which one is you, on the pic...I am thinking , the front pic.
I like the 12" hike...sounds like something I might be able to handle today.

Good mornin Jan.

I'm a MEMBER! WOW, it just happened.

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Hello Dear Friends,

Sorry about missing yesterday. Went to see my pain doc who lives in a city, a bigger city, than we do so it's a drive up and back. Then we had some running around to do and pretty soon most of the day is taken up. I was so tired I didn't do much when I got home.

Today I am feeling better, finally, after 12 days of horrible and unrelenting pain. So I'm going to get a few things done but watch my stamina and pain.

Billie - Good luck house hunting but that can take a lot out of you so I hope you don't try to see more than about 5 houses at once, especially if they have stairs.

Oh - hubby wants the computer so I will log back on or go to my laptop.

Lots of hugs to the rest of you and good luck on the diets. I think my body heard me talking about the D word and is not cooperating. Dumb body!

Love,
nancy-h

Morning all~
I wanted to get that out there first!

BC~
What happened to the house you wanted? Did I miss something? (As usual )

Maybe you should give your doc a call about your back, it couldn't hurt anything.

GC~
I totally agree about what "sits on my mind and festers, often shows up physically on my belly!" That is SO TRUE! How was it said once--a moment on the lips and a lifetime on the hips? Either one of them is true for me. I think a lot of people are emotional eaters, from what I've been reading. I know I am--happy, sad, and everything inbetween!

Biz~
You are such a supportive woman! I'm glad you're here!

SueBabe~
How our lives can change in a blink of an eye!! I wonder too if that driver ever thinks about how he changed ALL of those lives? I bet not... You "go that direction" anytime you want to honey!! We're here for you too ya know!!

Me too SueBabe! Carpe Diem (sp?) Sieze the day!! I am gonna eat healthy, do my walk (when the carpenters leave, but I PROMISE I will) AND (thanks for the reminder) will drink plenty of water. That's one thing I've been slipping up on.

Water. Not only does it make you feel a little more full, but it's good for your skin--the hydrating factor. I know it's good for lots more, but of course, the memory thing going on here. Why else is water good for us? I know you smart roomies will tell me!

Oh yeah, that reminds me. Will you guys that had the websites please post them in the sticky? Our wonderful Mod (oh yeah, I don't hafta kiss up! hehehe) made us a sticky. Also, anyone who has other ones that will share with us, please post them. I know there are tons of them, but of course I can't find the ones I had bookmarked...

Everyone have a GREAT day!!!
Hugs,
LS