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eva5667faliure 10-14-2013 02:29 PM

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Originally Posted by bizi (Post 1014998)
thank you again eva!
wanted you to know that alffe is my mom on the suicide forums, she helped to start that forum many years ago some time after my only brother killed himself. It was her only source of support, besides her family. Peter was a brave soul who suffered with suicidal thoughts his whole life, he taught her how to live again. He dies of natural causes as an old man. There are comforting words stickied to the top of the forums page if you are interested.
make it a great day.
bizi

thank you bizi
hope your day is filled with good things going on

bizi 10-14-2013 11:45 PM

thank you eva hope you are well.
bizi

bizi 10-19-2013 03:44 PM

Weighed 143 this morning down 13 pounds in 7 months. When I started drinking again I gained back the weight that I lost. now I am closer to where I was before....closer.....sigh

3-19-13=156, 5-17-13=145, 6-7-13=139.5 yeah!
8-1-13=148 sigh...8-8-13=151, 8-12-13=157.5 sigh
Starting new lifestyle 8-12-13: 100 day challenge, taking it a day at a time!
8-19-13= 148.5, ok I can do this. 8-30-13=145.5 yeah!
9-2-13= 150.5,9-6-13=147, 9-17-13=143 I fluctuate so much!
10-19-13= 143
goal weight= 135

bizi 10-20-2013 01:29 PM

I fit into my skinny jeans this morning! still have a pooch though, that should come off in time...(I hope)
bizi

bizi 11-01-2013 10:48 AM

ready to start a new month.
wolfie came last night. I sense of resentment...
."WHY CAN'T I BE LIKE EVERY ONE ELSE?"
I felt like 2 year old wanting something that I can't have. I still did not say anything to jeff because his response is just have a beer. I would have drank the six pack...sigh
After the treating hours were over we watched the birds movie, never had seen if before directed by alfred hitchcock. great movie.
then went to bed around 12:30, up at 8 but laid in bed until 9, no appointments this morning, on purpose. I am feeling lazy this morning, drinking some coffee, should go take a shower but want to reply to blogs etc. on line instead, more mental masterbation.
I made unhealthy food decisions last night. Did not have a dinner before trick or treating hours because we were busy putting on finishing touches to the house and applying our face paint etc. so I snacked on candy as it rained and had very few treaters who braved the elements. after 8pm we went to a neighbors house and by that time it had stopped raining so that was nice, he really decorates his house too but did not light anything up due to the rain so he was sad as well.
Went home and proceeded to have a carb feast: cup of ramen noodles and a big bag of popcorn...dinner at 10 pm!I must have had a dozen pieces of candy!
anyway I remained alcohol free and I don't usually eat like that. so today is a new month.
Will make the most of it!
Happy all souls day.
bizi

bizi 11-13-2013 12:22 AM

Just wanted to give you an update....Hubby is still practicing again, love it!
I am holding off in buying a new car.
(they told me they would give me $1K trade in value, it is worth more than that!)
I will just run this car as long as I can and replace the battery pack as I need to. Once it finally dies completely it will run on gasoline only and I will see what kind of gas mileage I get and decide then if we want to spend an extra 2K to replace the battery pack. It is a hybrid honda with only 100K miles on it so it should last a good bit longer. The thing is they stopped making this insight years ago so parts will be harder to find as it gets older. It is a 2002.
I love this car. As a trade in I drove a CRX model, which was just like the interior of this car so I was used to driving it immediately. What I would really like to have is an old CRX that has been fixed up! Maybe I could start looking for one? They stopped making them in 1991(I think).
Anyway
I finally made it to the gym last night
walked a 5K at 3 MPH for 64 minutes, feet hurt and the only reason I stuck it out was because I was watching the movie: ghost busters 2 silly movie! but kept me entertained for an hour while I ignored my feet and back that were starting to ache.
I weighed 140 this morning! I have more than 5 pounds of belly fat so maybe i need to adjust my goal weight of 135.
193 alcohol free days. this is the longest I have gone with out alcohol in I can't even remember when. I have taken breaks in the past but never over 90 days so this is amazing to me. I could not have done it with out your support. So thank you my friends!
bizi

bizi 01-10-2014 12:23 AM

WEll I had stopped counting once I got past 120 days....so decided to take the calender down and count....I am at 151 days alcohol free...that is 5 months. I was going to wait and let Belle tell me when I had reached 180 days....what the heck.
I am not hanging on to each number trying to not obsess with the counting.
It definately gets easier as time goes on but wolfie pops his head in every now and then.
Have to stay vigilant for him.
Maybe I will be brave to step on the scale tomorrow morning see the pounds that I have gained from my december month of feeding.
will see.....
have been chatting with some very nice people from all over the world at soberistas.
bizi www.soberistas.com

bizi 01-10-2014 10:19 AM

143.5 this am, a gain of 3.5 pounds, not horrible since I enjoyed a month of feasting!
bizi

bizi 02-20-2014 10:13 AM

good morning, I too need to get back on tract of dieting and watching what I eat. have put on a couple of more pounds...slowly creeping back up again. Have been eating these wonderful donuts int he mornings they are all gone now. clients have been feeding me, need to politely say no that I am on a diet.
But the scarey thing that I read last night is how sugar feeds cancer cells and more specifically can contribute to breast cancer risks. I knew that alcohol did this.
It was called an inflammation state.
It said that you can literally starve cancer cells buy keeping your insulin levels low by following a very low carbohydrate diet. So for people who have cancer they should be told this. Maybe the nutritionist are already telling them this. I have a friend that has throat cancer that has been thru 3 rounds of chemo and starting radiation soon. with once a week chemo for 5 weeks.
I feel sorry for him.
Chances are good that he will lose his salivary glands, and other side effects, could lose taste too. He doesn't want to go thru with the treatments. I really feel for him.
No sugar for this woman!
Today I start my diet again. and that means cutting out my sugary beers! So I am going to try to be AF until mardi gras. so it is back to day one. http://assets3.sparkpeople.com/asset...icons/e249.gif
I am drinking just half and half with stevia this morning, not my usual french vanilla creamer full of sugar.
bizi

bizi 02-26-2014 09:34 PM

Oh I love being on a low carb diet when we go out to eat at Dwights.
Our favorite restaurant.
Piping hot Char-broiled oysters with a buttery, slightly spicy cheeseyness that is delightfully sinful! First of the season. I had the crawfish ettouffe with cheese over mixed brocolli/califlower and carrots instead of a baked potato.
Jeff had 3#s of boiled crawfish with baby red potatoes and a piece of corn on the cobb.
They only opened last night for crawfish and we are so happy!!!!
bizi


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