yes. i'm on a sliding scale of humalog 3 x's/day.
and, i do take lantus at nite.

i see the dietician next wk.
i will need prayers to change all this.

i've been heavy most of my life since childhood.
was emotionally abused and used food to feel better.
so i was abused at home and shunned at school. no safe place to go.

and so i've been heavy most of my life. i've lost a few times and stayed down but never kept it off. i'm so much stronger now. in a great place mentally alas for the wt issue. i'll keep you posted.

would you be a candidate for bariatric (sp?) surgery?
I am sorry this is so hard.
I am very sorry that you were abused....
(((((HUGS))))))
bizi

i am a candidate, and for several different types.
but i chickened out. i feel it's so drastic. you can eat yourself out of it. until i change my mindset it won't work.

i have been able to change my mindset several times but it doesn't last.
i don't have much faith in myself when it comes to eating. otherwise i'm mentally healthy.

159.2 sigh
bizi

Went to a choral concert last night at the auditorium. I thought it started at 730, it started at 7...
sigh
4th dose of lithium this morning....
no alcohol cravings last night...
first night alcohol free in a while.:)
Last night I stopped off at mcdonalds had a sausage egg mcmuffin for dinner. 450 calories for $1.29, no wonder people eat fast food. IT is cheap!
Actually I just realized they forgot to put the egg on it!
so fewer calories!
Maybe it is a placebo effect but I already feel more in control.
Jeff just got home, he went fishing with a friend.
Glad he is home.

I snacked later on a bunch of dried apple slices. then some smoked almonds.
We are going to a memorial service today where there will be drinks and food.
Will watch myself because we are traveling to baton rouge to eat dinner, my favorite dish: New orleans style bbq shrimp. Yum!
think shrimp in a butter pepper sauce that you soak up with a roll.
Not diet food!
then we go to this halloween attraction called the 13th gate. Best attraction in the country!
That is always fun!

Hubby has a gig this morning so will eat breakfast sooner than normal, short gig half an hour, playing banjo first line stuff for a couple who is getting engaged. It is a surprise to her! Maybe I can sneak into the back ground and watch. It will be open on campus so why not?
We have to pick out our pumpkins today! running out of time.
Hubby is not so sure he will get up all of his decorations, ground is hard...it will be very difficult to get the tomb stones in the ground.
so busy day planned.
bizi
156.8 this am, I can do this!

you are a busy lady & it all sounds so happy.

you CAN do it biz.believe in yourself & be gentle with yourself.

thanks nancy!
Last nite was the same, waking up at 3am, then 4 then 5 finally getting up at 730, feeling groggy.
In addition to my regular psych meds, I Took some natural supplements, amino acids to see if I could sleep better last night.
Really did not help.
Slept poorly.
Maybe I can not take them on an as needed basis, rather they need to be built up and it might take a while to work?
Ordered some books about them so am anxious to read up on them.
One book is called the mood cure and the other is called the diet cure by Julia Ross.
bizi

I don't eat breakfast
3 cups of coffee with half and half and stevia sweetener.

lunch:
4 oz of grilled pompano fish (my favorite fish!)
3/4 cup of collard greens
1 cup of fruit salad
1/2 cup of quinoa tabouli salad.

Dinner:
1 oz of cheddar cheese
4oz of talapia sauteed lemon pepper
1 1/2 cups of long green beans
1/2 cup of tomatoes with lite vinaigrette dressing
small satsuma orange

6 veggies
3 fruits
1 grain
3 proteins
1 dairy
at least 6 fats

bizi

7 hours of sleep, 2 1/2 hours of charting/paper work done this morning.
155 this morning down 3.5 pounds in one week. I know it is water weight but I still like seeing the numbers go down! Great start to my day!!!!
bizi

hi biz

this is just a nursey thing....please be sure that any supplements you take you run by your dr. some things react with meds & you might not even know it. :)