I think that I am on to something but needed it to happen again before I could point my finger at an ovary and scream, "YOU!" at it.

I am 99.9% positive my period is triggering the worst seizures I have. These differ from all of the others, and they are so bad I would prefer a drop-seizure in public over them any day. Just so you get the idea of this pain.

Just so I can go better into detail here, I was in labor, literally, for over two months. Flat on my back, sucking up shots, steroids and magnesium sulfate every single day - but the labor pains never stopped. I am OK with pain, my pain tolerance is very high, high enough that I didn't notice I was in pre-term labor until it was too late, and the other time, I had to get emergency surgery because I blew off 'cramping'.

It isn't a good thing! I wish sometimes I were better able to notice pain, but then again - that may mean these seizures would hurt even more.

Next, I am pretty good with shocking material. I was 14 when I was told I had the pre-cancer cells on my cervix and acted as any normal teen would, "Am I going to die?" No? Great! I've had so many cancer scares and haven't even hit 30 yet. I am always the calm one.

Now, on to these evil seizures. They scare the living crap out of me and have caused me to question if I was dying or not. They are THAT bad. I go blind, I can't move, I can't talk, and the pain is so awful I cannot hardly stand it. I noticed something though, they only come once a month and as I started to review my journal - they always come the day before my period. My period is not regular, it's always a surprise.

The weird part is that they are worse each time, and they started about 5 months ago. They are 'new' for the most part. My other seizures are typically painless unless I hit something on my way down, they do hurt afterwards but just your standard headache, muscle aches, etc.

I don't know what these things are, my doctor says seizures - but my cycle and I are going to have a faceoff here soon should this continue. I was almost ready to call my doctor and beg for pain pills. I don't even take pain pills, ever! I may use a Relpax for a migraine I can't ditch, but that's all. Simply put, this pain may only last a day or two but it is horrible pain. I compare it to my Trigeminal Neuralgia - it is like it has moved all around my body.

I don't know if I can do anything about this, but has anyone heard of such a thing? Google is not helping me, and I dread next month already. I am half tempted to ask them to just take out my womanly parts to save myself a lifetime of once-a-month agony.

Sorry for ranting, but these just stink. I've been in bed since Thursday for the most part because of it. And I am still tired.