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Originally Posted by bellakinns
I am NOT ace accepting my being disabled that I have a chronic medical condition and chronic pain condition and then that I have brain damage due to last #3 spinal fusion surgery that failed?
I don't know how to accept all of this?
will I?
and not only all this health changes I also have to accept my husband having an affair me leaving him me 100% disabled now where as a few short months ago I worked I was semi happy trying to rebuild what was shattered and then all this Its WAY to much
I have NO health insurance.
No support system. no friends they all ran after Feb.
I am still me just a little different.
I suffer from extreme anxiety and stress and have No medication for pain for anxiety I feel like I'm going to lose my mind soon
I HATE being alone
I'm homebound 99% of the time.
will I ever accept everything and be able to go forward?
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Hi bella, Im so sorry & hate that you are suffering! It is totally bad enough to suffer in pain physically but adding in emotional pain & its too much! Do you understand this.... being made to feel like you arent worthy of proper treatment, love, care because you cant "perform" the way people, husbands expect & put pressure to "perform" up to whatever level he decides is good enough, acceptable & to meet those expectations or you get disapproval. So, you try & try until you are living your life to meet his expectations & get his approval but all the things that worked before that won you respect, grace, love dont work any more? Like looking pretty, cooking great, cleaning house etc & they still arent enough because fiscally i dont bring in enough money, only $300/month, & so once in awahile i get hurtful words or disapproval that im not enough. Being a faithful wife, christian, good mom, good wife arent looked at when measuring me with the "worthy ruler" he just wants monetary help even though we are fine financially. I am here to support you, i care about your pain.