Hi bella, Im so sorry & hate that you are suffering! It is totally bad enough to suffer in pain physically but adding in emotional pain & its too much! Do you understand this.... being made to feel like you arent worthy of proper treatment, love, care because you cant "perform" the way people, husbands expect & put pressure to "perform" up to whatever level he decides is good enough, acceptable & to meet those expectations or you get disapproval. So, you try & try until you are living your life to meet his expectations & get his approval but all the things that worked before that won you respect, grace, love dont work any more? Like looking pretty, cooking great, cleaning house etc & they still arent enough because fiscally i dont bring in enough money, only $300/month, & so once in awahile i get hurtful words or disapproval that im not enough. Being a faithful wife, christian, good mom, good wife arent looked at when measuring me with the "worthy ruler" he just wants monetary help even though we are fine financially. I am here to support you, i care about your pain.