I don't know what the right answer is so please don't go by what I'm saying. It's just my opinion. I think it's a very personal decision that everyone should make on their own. I do know that the saying "don't judge me until you've walked a mile in my shoes" has applied to my life on more than one occasion. There were people I've judged in the past for doing things that I said I would never do, only to find myself in their position later in my life making the same decisions they made. Then I understood why they did what they did and tried to stop judging after that. I never thought I would even consider the topic we are talking about here until I got rsd, but the pain is so bad sometimes, like right now that it's keeping me up in the middle of the night. I don't know how much longer I can take it. It's horrible and terrifies me. Yes, it also scares me to think of my afterlife. I want to believe there's a heaven and that I will be able to go there someday to see my loved ones who have since past. I don't want to compromise that either, but I also believe God is good and merciful and that I hope He would understand and forgive me if I made a decision that would end my suffering. I don't want to leave my loved ones here on earth either though. The thought of having my son and husband live with fact that I did something like that makes me not want to end my suffering. Because then they would suffer the rest of their lives. I'm trying to endure the pain more for their sakes, then for mine. But I don't know how much more pain I can take. I hope we never get to that point and that a cure is found. Maybe a miracle will happen. Maybe then we won't have to worry about making that decision. I just don't know. Right now I'm just trying to take it a day at a time, until I may have to walk that final mile with this disease. From my past experiences, I suppose that only then I will truly know what decision I will ultimately end up making for myself.