I can't do any of the treatments till this little boy is born. Also just found out my husband can't come down this weekend. So now I have trash stacking up outside because no one can take it to the dump. My mother (who has health issues also) will be here next weekend and staying till a little after the birth. Its just amazing that all of a sudden I no longer exist to these people. The only one they want to hear about is my 2 yr old son. Not my new little one or me. I'm not blaming my son he's usually really good. An angel almost. Even my "friends" aren't calling or stopping by. I think that's my main thing. I don't exist anymore. If I disappeared no one would think about me. I'm just irritated and hurting. With the weather changes, and my pain and this stupid disorder is spreading I just want to curl into a ball and cry. But I can't do that till my son is asleep.